our last two babies were born UP/UC. they were beautiful experiences. i am now pregnant with baby #7. dh really wanted to have a midwife, i said ok. i looked and looked and interviewed some and i found one i like. but now that i have gone to my first appointment and have filled out all the blasted paper work... i keep thinking WHY?
they measured my fundus, took my bp and pulse, had me pee on a stick, and checked my weight. we heard the babies heart beat (which i must admit was comforting) and chit chatted for a bit,but after about 20 - 25 minutes i was out the door with a bundle of paper work and an order for an ultrasound.
as i went thru all the paper work there was so much i just crossed out that i do not consent to. it is frustrating. she is a nice woman, and i love her midwives in training. some of my friends have used her and they love her. she has great outcomes... but i don't want to be told what to do. i trust my body and i feel like the whole thing made me start doubting myself. do i need them to check out my vagina? do they HAVE to do pelvic checks every so and so? i mean I KNOW they don't but it is all in there.
we reserve the right to check progress with or without instruments. what right? it is my body! you have no rights over my body!
so here i am. we haven't paid them anything yet, it is over $3000 which is really hard for us to come up with (not that money is the issue) but i am not sure i need to see someone every 4 weeks to check my weight, look at my pee and feel up my belly. and they get all stressed because i am not in labor at such and such a time. in fact ALL but one of my kids was born at 41+ weeks. and i am sure i ovualted early but she wouldn't really listen to that. she kept giving me the date from the wheel of fortune. like some how i don't know my own body. it is there always there.. that making you doubt yourself.
i don't know what i am going to do. do i stay or go? ugh