Sometimes I feel all alone in my decisions. To clarify; I am not yet a parent but I plan to be in the next couple of years. They will absolutely not be vaxxed. I have not been vaxxed since I was 11, I am now 24. I don't believe in it for a variety of reasons that I thankfully do not have to justify to you lovely people.
But in everyday life, I am surrounded by people who think I'm a nutter for choosing not to vax. My SO's family is the main problem here. I sometimes wonder if not having kids would be preferable to their judgement on this subject. They are wonderful people but we could not be any more different in our beliefs on this topic.
I almost lost my temper with them about two weeks ago. The topic of the HPV vax came up. They were bashing a politician who opposes it. I sort of came in in the middle of the conversation, and I think they were bashing him for not supporting it because it "encourages teenage sex." To be fair, if this was true, I would disagree with the politician for taking this stance (i.e., the kind of person that would ban sex ed in schools in hopes that it would discourage kids from having sex.) But I agreed with the fact that he was opposing the vax, not because of this reason but because it's ineffective at best and dangerous at worst. I threw out some random number about people who had had bad reactions after having it, which I know was not the right stat. I was just so angry and felt attacked. They made me feel attacked without meaning to, because they have no idea of my beliefs. I just felt like I had to say something to rebut their ignorance on the issue! They were going on and on about the damn vax like it was the best thing and how we should be so thankful that it exists :/ I guess when the way they were going on, it felt like a personal attack on my values. My fault, I know, since I have not told them that I don't agree. I just find it so hard to keep my mouth shut!
They basically wondered aloud if the source I from which I had gotten my info from was at all true, which I guess I should have kept a level enough head to tell them the right number AND the source. Instead, my SO and I quickly steered the conversation in another direction because he and I both knew I was about to go on a tirade about it if they kept it up.
These are very smart people I am talking about, they just have never, ever questioned a single thing a dr. has told them and it makes me both sad and angry. I learned early never to blindly trust anyone, especially someone who is supposed to be looking after your health and makes money doing so. I questioned every single vax that was recommended and decided none of them were worth it to me. I wish they'd do the same. I know when a baby or two comes along in a few years, it'll come out that I will not be allowing them to be vaxxed, and I expect it to not go over too well. At this point, even if I came up with plenty of evidence that I am indeed justified in my concerns, my SO's parents are too brainwashed to believe or want to believe a word of it. It's seriously made me depressed ever since this conversation occurred because I realized how very different we think and how I will probably a., never get through to them, and b., always be the odd man out on this topic.
I just needed to vent. Sometimes I just come here and read the threads to be reminded that I'm not alone.