I'm doing SO MUCH better this time around. Walked around after labor with no issues. Didn't have much swelling and my uterus shrank down to size fast! Due to a gnarly heatwave I was not planning to buy a belly binder and didn't notice much back pain once Lillian was out!
I am still processing the early PROM and know that it's almost entirely due to the BV infection. I'm still so upset about it. I still wish I was pregnant. It's all very strange-- why? Lillian is VERY healthy. She's gaining as she should be (at birth weight + 2oz. already at 7 days old!) and has no issues whatsoever. We are so blessed. I need to focus on that!
My DD is having lots of trouble adjusting. Last two nights she woke up screaming and I thought it was night terrors. But we think her legs hurt-- maybe growing pains? She's only 3.75 so we aren't sure if that's possible this young.
I did lots of preparing with books and talking about the baby. Because she was so early lots of things aren't going as I planned. I being concerned with weight am not letting DD1 nurse and I promised myself to try to tandem nurse. I'm already seeing DD become jeaous or resentful of the new baby. She is lashing out while I'm nursing which has been CONSTANTLY. I'm trying to get the babies weight up and establish a good supply, also lots of skin-to-skin. DD1 can see all the attention going to the new baby and I know it's affecting her.
The heart wrenching part is when we are sleeping DD used to crawl over toward me and snuggle with me and now can't because I have baby in arms! I really wish I knew of a solution. I was thinking of having DD next to baby but am too worried to try it-- baby is so little! I don't even like to put her down right now. Some weird mama bear instinct kicking in I guess. DD senses it and must feel like she's losing me. It just hurts to see that happen this way-- I was hoping it would be more of a natural, gradual thing. I am so thankful DH is home and putting her to bed but he gets very frustrated when he has to hold and rock her-- he seriously thinks she should put herself to bed. I tried to warn him it's tricky with her and takes a LONG time. She's fighting it.
Any advice for me ladies? And how are you all fairing with your recovery and little ones?