Okay, so I just don't know when to medicate? I know last time I wish I had sought help sooner. But I am terrified of going on an SSRI again only because of the withdrawal I experienced when I had to get off of it abruptly 19 months ago (found out we were pregnant). My new dd is 10 months old, here are some symptoms I am having.
anxiety: just not being able to deal with things rationally. I share custody of my son with my ex-husband. I am not able to move past stressful situations that come up. I can't sleep when there is conflict.
almost having panic attacks, but not full-blown yet. Just that wave that comes over when one is about to come on. I have a terrible fear that my children will be snatched from me,so a simple trip to the store is extremely anxiety inducing, or that we will be murdered in our home. So if DH is gone in the night I am in a state of anxiety. I can't shake it. Breathing isn't helping...maybe actual paranoia with anxiety here? Sigh.
Irritability and being overwhelmed: I remember this was a common thread from last time. I begin the day with my stress-level already met. I do have three children and we homeschool. But I can literally lay down for a few hours in the day, no one cares if the house is messy...so it is literally quite all in my head. I don't want to be the mama that gets mad about everything again :(
It *seems* I could benefit from some help...it doesn't seem as bad as it was with my second child...but it isn't getting any better. I try rescue remedy, and chamomile tea. They help a little...but not enough. Also, we were at the point where we wanted to start not preventing another pregnancy. I don't seem to have these struggles during pregnancy, which is good, but man oh man, coming off of an SSRI is one of the worst things to go through. What about SSRI's and milk supply? I don't know what I am asking...any similar experiences or thoughts from you all?