Labor, Birth and my immediate post-partum period were great. DD latched on quickly and well within and hour of birth. I nursed on demand, but my milk came in in trickles.
Since then I've seen good results from lactation consultant help, going to a support group, the whole array of supplements and Domperidone, but I still only have about a 2/3 supply.
Some days I just hate my body and even think that I don't want another child if I can't nourish them well.
As for my beloved daughter, she has been so patient and continued to nurse even though it often still left her hungry for a bottle, but now, at 5wks, it seems her patience has worn thin.
She will only nurse contentedly half the time, and I am worried that by supplementing more as her needs grow, I am worsening my supply because I am getting less stimulation.
Pumping is useless-- I get 10-15mL from both sides combined per 20min session-- And that's with compressions. I am trying some manual expression, and that seems better.
I am also about to try a Lact-Aid supplementer to replace the bottles, but I hate the idea of making our BF time complicated by using a contraption.
I am just so sad and frustrated I want to just give up. I think that at least then ill have the convenience of formula instead of the worst of both worlds.
I just need some words of encouragement for why I should still try to BF before these feelings get the best of me...