I wanted to ask about TTC feelings. A bit of background - we have been waiting to TTC until after our son turned two. It's been all I can think about for months! Basically, we've thought a lot about the decision and are so excited. I've talked to prospective midwives, etc. I got my IUD out, and after finishing up a little medical issue we'll start TTC (actually my period is due soon so I think we'll miss this next cycle - we have to abstain while I finish this treatment which is a few more weeks). Anyhow, now that we're actually here I keep having these thoughts, and they surprise me a bit.
What if I have a miscarriage? How will that affect me as a mother to my DD and DS?
What if the new baby is autistic or really difficult? DD and DS are so wonderful - easy going, loving, wonderful, smart.
I'm so happy with my life right now, what if the new baby changes that?
These thoughts surprise me a bit, because I felt so strongly about TCC. Have other mamas had this ambivalence even though they were also really wanting to TTC? Just normal cold feet or a sign that we aren't ready?