I'm always a whiner. My feet are swollen, my hands have ct they're numb, I feel like I have a uti half the time, I burp, vomit, fart like a champion I stopped seeing my womb as a vessel of life.
I hope you get help Yogi, I got a great psych. It gets worse after. Body image truly toilets then as even if you wear your pre prego jeans home we all have jelly belly, the breasts sag slightly for a year after weaning - but do perk up again. But I'm also in my 40th year. I lost a baby and 14 coworkers, friends, family members in a year span in 2012. Sure I have stretchmarks, but I don't have cancer today. I will need reading glasses but unlike my sister who was legally blind and lost 100% of her vision, I can still read. I try to be grateful and humble "a wisdom not entertained in youth but in its passing".
All to say hang on Yogini, the journey of motherhood is about selfsacrifice, it tests all of our limits, pains our heart and we often wonder if its worth it. It is and the crappy exhausting part is fleeting. My daughter called me from college today, she's in another city, she was at my grandmothers checking in on her. They grow up so fast its amazing.
I'm blubbering but know everyone has similar feelings, you're not alone but the rewards of being a mom, feeling those slobbery first wipe mouth on moms cheek type kisses, life doesn't get better.