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Horrible First Appointment

post #1 of 24
Thread Starter 

Hi everyone,

 

I just came back from my first appointment and boy am I terrified.  Some time in early September I found out I was pregnant.  I had my last period in 27 of July, and missed a period in August. I have what I think might be a fairly regular cycle of 29 days.  But over the last year my periods have been longer, sometimes lasting up to 8 to 10 days.  Anyway...fast forward to today.  My doctor does the first ultrasound and asked me who told me I was pregnant.  My heart sank.  For a second there I totally thought could I have imagined all this.  He then sent me to the lab for a pregnancy test because to him the ultrasound was showing either a sac or something else..like old blood.  So, I took a blood pregnancy test, which came out positive.  So, at least that confirmed I'm not going nuts.  He prescribed me bed rest and 300 mg of progesterone vaginally because of the spotting.  I have to take a few tests to measure my pregnancy hormones over the next few days.  

 

I am beyond terrified of losing this baby.  I have heard people coming out of similar situations alright.  I could have miscalculated my conception date.  But I'm also starting to think maybe I just over did it these last couple of weeks.  I want to stay positive but can't help but torture myself. bawling.gif 

 

Belle    

post #2 of 24

Oh, I'm so sorry! I've also heard of people coming out of this situation ok. For example you could have ovulated much later than usual. And if it does turn out to be bad news, it's not your fault, so please don't torture yourself.

 

Hugs!

post #3 of 24

hugs!  You may have ovulated differently this time.  A friend of mine is sure she had a freak period during her last pregnancy becuase the baby came out looking late but was 3 days early (and she is consistantly 1 week late, this was baby #8).  Our bodies aren't consistant, try to relax and wait it out.  Not easy I know!

post #4 of 24
Thread Starter 
Thanks so much for your kind words of encouragement. I will stay positive as much as I can. I think I'm still processing what this all means. I started the progesterone and now have severe cramping. Before I was spotting but now it's heavier.
post #5 of 24

BelleCreole, you're in my thoughts. That is a scary situation and I really hope things end up working out for you.

post #6 of 24
Oh, Belle, I'm sorry you had such a bad experience at the doctor's. greensad.gif It doesn't sound like he was very empathetic or informative.

It sounds like from your dates that an ultrasound would have showed something further along by now. Along with the cramping and bleeding, one possibility is that you had the beginnings of a pregnancy that didn't develop... unfortunately that would explain the positive test, because our hormones start to go up, and even keep rising a little, even with a loss.

If you are going for HCG levels, that will help to show you if your numbers are falling, rising slowly, or doubling. With a viable pregnancy they ought to be high and doubling every couple of days.

I went through an early loss with my last pregnancy, about as far along as you are, and I got tremendous support and good information from the "Pregnancy and Birth Loss" boards here at MDC. The ladies there are so supportive and know a lot.

Please be gentle with yourself and take good care of yourself too, in terms of letting your body rest and getting food and drink, whatever happens. I do want to reassure you , though, that the vast majority of miscarriages have nothing to do with anything you did -- it definitely wouldn't be that you overdid it or anything like that. Most of the time it was just a chromosomal issue from the start.

I hope you get some clarity soon, it is hard not knowing. hug2.gif Hang in there and let us know how you are doing.
post #7 of 24
Thinking of you, Belle.
post #8 of 24
Thread Starter 
I am so appreciative for this forum. You all have really helped me to calm down. The last couple of days truly have been gut wrenching. Last night after inserting 300 mg of progesterone I had strong to severe cramping. I also had a flow of thick red blood. Prior to that I only was spotting and no cramping. I went for my first HcG Beta blood test. I have another two scheduled this week. For now, I am visualizing a healthy pregnancy with no future drama. Until the doctor can confirm that I am indeed miscarrying, I have no choice but to believe a it will work out. I feel more energized and I do not have as much blood as I did last night. I didn't pass any clots yet. So thank you all for your words of encouragement because it helped me to not give up.

Belle
post #9 of 24

hang in there mama, and come back and give us an update when you have more news :) *hugs*

post #10 of 24
Thread Starter 

Thanks again!  As for an update, my first beta test came back 1251, which would be normal for 6 week pregnancy.  I take another one tomorrow to see if it's rising.  I am now on my third dose of progesterone.  I only had the cramping and heavier bleeding the first night.  Now, I'm still spotting lightly.  It also occurred to me after looking at my cycle a lot closer that I have been pretty irregular.  Example May 2013 - Cycle length 20 days, June 2013 - Cycle Length 39 days, July 2013 - Cycle Length 29 days.  Any thoughts?

 

BElle

post #11 of 24

Ok, that's all good news so far. It sounds like you ovulate unpredictably and your hormone levels are tentatively ok. Fingers crossed for tomorrow!

post #12 of 24
Thread Starter 

Looks like I won't be welcoming a brand new baby home in may.  I miscarried this morning.  Last night was the first night that I slept without waking up at 3 or 4 am.  I went to bathroom only to pull out the sac.  I will head to the doctor to make sure all is well with me.  I'm still trying to process this.  After 7 years, I was really looking forward to nursing, changing diapers, and sleep training again.  But I guess it just wasn't meant to be.

 

Thanks so much for the support!

 

Belle 

post #13 of 24
(((Hug)))
post #14 of 24
I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sending healing thoughts your way.
post #15 of 24
Oh, Belle, I'm so sorry to hear this. It's always just so sad to give up on that hope. Wishing you peace and healing. Take care of yourself. hug2.gif

- mb
post #16 of 24

(((Hug))) and praying for you

post #17 of 24

(hugs)  so sorry and wishing you peace and healing 

post #18 of 24

I'm really sorry, Belle.  (((Hugs)))

post #19 of 24

I'm so sorry. So very, very sorry.

post #20 of 24
I know this may come off as a bit messed up but things happen for a reason. In July I wanted to get a dog. I saved up the money and found a dog that I wanted. Due to moving I found out I couldn't get a dog because where I live I can't have dogs. A month later I found out I was pregnant. A dog costs a lot but so does a baby so getting a dog would not have worked. Maybe there is a reason ita not your time yet, but your time will come smile.gif stay positive!
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