Bring on the babies!
At what point are you in your pregnancy (timeline, physically, emotionally?) or, if your babe is on the outside, how old is he/she, and what is he/she like?
i am 41 weeks today.
superbeans-- i know what you mean! my body is pretending i'm not pregnant as well! i did dream last night that i lost my mucus plug & it was pretty gross. but all i get are on & off mild contractions. the baby has been moving like crazy the last few days! sometimes it is so painful!
i'm currently trying to force my baby out with a diet of donuts. i don't think it will really work, but--hey--donuts
gracisue-- out of 3 babies i have only had labor once. the first 2 were sectioned due to non-progression at 42 weeks. the labor for #3 was so intense & painful! i had no idea what to expect & then i ended up with a fast hard labor of contractions right on top of each other. i kind of hold onto that--thinking--okay, this time i know it will be painful. that's one thing i know. my midwife told me i could have an orgasmic birth & could relax & just breathe through the pain, but i figure if i am prepared for the worst--then i know what to expect & won't be caught off-guard like i was last time. for some reason i find this comforting. relaxing is so difficult for me! even on a good day it's difficult for me to relax--having a baby is not when i am going to figure out how to relax! (though once the oxytocin kicked in during birth #3, i was in a much better place!)
Today is my due date, so I'd say I'm more than ready for my baby to be here! I have a doctor's appt today, hopefully there will be some change to my cervix. I'm really nervous that I'll be told it's still closed up tight. Other than being nervous about today's appt, I'm doing ok emotionally, I guess. I'm starting to get really really tired of the pressure I feel like people are putting on me (unintentionally) to "have the baby already". I know people mean well, but it just annoys me now when I get texts saying that it's a great day to have a baby, or to tell the baby to come out. I'm feeling impatient enough without being bothered by everyone else's impatience.
I'm 37 +1 today... due the 28th but really counting on the full moon for her to be here. Physically it depends on the day how I'm doing... Sunday I went to a music/yoga festival and was on my feet for 5 hours and then in the car for 2 and did a yoga class, so yesterday I felt awful and had hip/back pain and was limping around the house (yet had an insatiable urge to spend 3 hours organizing the kitchen by going through all the miscellaneous jars and bulk ingredients and labeling them -- standing on a chair while 9 months pregnant-- and then making my husband an elaborate dinner of baked salmon, roasted beets and carrots, red potatoes and sauteed chard... and THEN make a batch of kale chips and raw brownies in the dehydrator.... and THEN clean it all up and freeze 3/4 of what I made). I feel a little more settled in my nesting because almost everything is checked off my list except for WHO is going to encapsulate my placenta and how much $, and when and which birth tub we're going to get. We're going to figure this stuff out tomorrow when my midwife comes for the home visit and makes sure we have everything. I feel like I have a little more breathing/eating room now and my hips feel like they're falling apart- like literally my right leg feels like it's about to come out of the socket and my pubic bone hurts if i sit cross legged with my heel against it or if I sit too forward in a chair-- baby's head is in there! I tried to feel my cervix yesterday and I'm pretty sure I felt the baby's head through my vaginal walls- really crazy feeling....
emotionally I'm ready for her to come out but I'm definitely not as urgent about it, she can wait as long as she wants~ I'm finally enjoying my pregnancy even though sleeping sucks and I'm in pain if I overdo it as I often do- My girlfriends have finally pulled it together and I feel supported, I'm having a blessingway this weekend. My husband finally understands why it's so freaking important that I check things off my list and just gives me the bank card so I can get the things we need for the baby, so I'm not freaking out about being unprepared. I feel like I've already mourned the loss of my freedom and autonomy just with this year of being dependent on my husband and not working consistently, and then having this summer be nothing but "missing out" on things I usually do-- go to music festivals and go on road trips with friends-- but I'm over it now. I don't care... and I know we're still going to do that stuff- just with a baby. My friends who recently had a baby took their little 5 week old to the yoga festival for the daytime portion (which was low-amplified kirtan music and yoga classes, not loud bass like at night) and looked pretty well adjusted and were still doing things they wanted to do-- so I have hope. That and I'm really happy with the season that she's being born in, it's the perfect time to have a baby right when the weather is getting all cozy, and by the time it's nice again she'll be a solid 6 month old and I'll be back in shape... so it's all good.
and i'm REALLY excited for the birth. just to experience it. even if it hurts and is crazy and I feel like I'm going to die, I am really excited for the experience. Does that sound weird?
No, it's not weird. I've felt the same way for each of my three births, just really looking forward to it and not worried about the pain at all. Go figure. ( Then when the pain comes of course I say, "Um, never mind, I don't want to do this!" and really really feel that way, but then that feeling only lasts a matter of minutes and then over and bliss ensues, so it's really not a bad deal. ) You'll be fine.
Glad you are in a better headspace! Awesome.
Porter's cord fell off early this morning too. We have his first dr. appointment tomorrow so I'm sure we'll talk to his pediatrician about it. I remember DS1s cord staying on for what seemed like forever so I was really surpirsed that this happened so fast. But then again everything about this baby has felt fast so far so I shouldn't be surrprised.
I think it was Happileigh who best described engorgement as "porn star boobs" I almost peed my pants when I read that and then looked down at my freakin ginormous rock hard boobs and was like...yep
So Im currently 41 weeks now and also really tired of the "how you doing" and "any signs yet" comments...I shouldve NEVER told anyone I lost my mucus plug! After I told my mom that she responded with a text that she lit my blessingway candles for me and baby and was awaiting his/her arrival I told her to blow them out this could still go on for days! (which it has) Its exciting to know that this could happen any second really! Ive been having mild but slightly stronger rushes than usual, my midwife keeps reminding me that the more work my body does now the less Ill have to do when real labor starts, so I keep holding onto that thought. Im still struggling with what to do about my 2 1/2 yr old son when labor starts since we are having a homebirth. I really want him here to see what Ive been talking about the last 9 mths, but Im unsure of how he will be if he sees me in a pool in the living room and want to join me! I planned on having a close friend here to occupy him so that my beloved could be with me. However I wonder if I would labor easier if he wasnt around? Im also afraid of how he would react if he were gone for the birth and shows up to a new baby in his house, how will he react? I should note that my son is extremely spirited(as I like to call him, others might say difficult), hes still extremely attached to his Mama and Im told when Im not around hes a different kid. He just recently had his 1st overnight stay with his Nana, who I adore and trust so he has a place to go if need be. Part of me is really hoping for this all to go down while hes asleep! Anyone else have a simlar experience with your toddler?