I am not just like "whatever". And yet I feel I am failing my family.
My oldest child just won't bend. We say really often that to have an Unschooling family, we all have a responsibility to each other to meet the needs of all.
My second oldest (6 1/2), just had a surgery to reconstruct his hearing. We have said over and over to all the kids that we have to do our best to protect Peter's ear while it heals (about three months). Ugh. I feel overwhelmed just typing this all out.
My oldest (Daniel) had a huge fit at the playground. He felt justified in forcing Peter to do as he said, and felt a high level of violence (including Peter's ear) was justified.
It was so awful. It escalated and escalated until I lost it and broke his ds. I immediately regretted it and knew I had made a big mistake.
How can we recover? Although Daniel was being dangerous, threatening the other kids (I have an infant and a 3 yo girl), he doesn't see at all how his actions played a part.
I admit the social part of Daniel's behavior is hardest of all.
I feel very alone, as Daniel's behavior is isolating.
I am struggling, not knowing whether to blame myself or allow Daniel to find responsibility (to a degree). Even now, I am staying calm, typing this as I sit with Simon (our baby). Daniel came in and I gently asked him to leave so that I could have some space. He refused as he always does, so I had to leave.