I was pregnant with my third child. My first was a hard hospital birth and my second was the most ideal Ina May Gaskin perfect homebirth. I thought for sure I would have another perfectly relaxed homebirth. He was born a month early in the hospital, and it was one with lots of interventions at that. I am having a hard time coming to terms with this. I was miserable in the hospital and I had a bad experience. I wanted it to be at home. :(
I keep thinking of all of the things I could have done differently or should have done instead of what I did do.
Anyone else have this remorseful feeling after not having the birth you wanted to have and expected to have?