I've defiantly been feeling this way! #1 was hard. #2 was breezy (even with the m/s) #3, this pregnancy, is so SUCKY. I've got no better word for it. I'm exhuasted, in pain, and find it humiliating. I'm sick of wetting myself when I cough and sneeze, of not being able to breath, and feeling like a narcoleptic. I can fall asleep pretty much anywhere EXCEPT in my bed at night.
For me, this is worrying. When I realized today I'm 2 months until my due date, but probably closer to 2.5 away from holding my baby, I felt complete panic for two reasons. One, I can't believe I have to endure this for longer! I am HUGE and so uncomfortable and finding so many things impossible. Two, I'm also not ready to take care of a newborn again! The weeks of breastfeeding being so very hard (I have oversupply/overactive letdown), the worse back ache that come from floppy abs and back muscles. The hormones- OH, the hormones! Can't we just fast forward from right now to two months old?
As for struggling with DP being less involved, I'll say this:
With pregnancy #1 he wasn't that "into" it, but he showed up with his game face on for active labor and support. HE was physically sore and exhausted after supporting me through such an arduous
and protracted labor. With #2, I found out he could be even less supportive/interested throughout. He added to the difficulty of the pregnancy 2 fold. I was really worried about labor, because we couldn't afford a doula that time and I had no idea if he'd be supportive in any way. Turns out, he wasn't that helpful. He was there and "available', but all the while working on his laptop. He felt bad about it afterward, he said the speed with which it all progressed had surprised him. He'd been "pacing himself." (roll eyes, right?).
Turns out, though, I didn't have any need for him at all. I mean, I'd be pissed if he wasn't *there* within hollering distance.
After NEEDING a tremendous amount of support from my midwives, doula, and dh the first time, my second birth, all I wanted to do was be left alone.... at least until the very, very, very end. Even there, all I wanted was to be monitored.
Pregnancy #3, he IS attentive, supportive, and sympathetic. He's much more patient and doesn't push me to do anything. I've heard him turn down commitments for us actually using the excuse, "...but she's pregnant with our third, I think we have to pass." This is very welcome. I have no idea what has shifted, but it has. I wonder so much how he'll be during labor/delivery. Every man is different... mine is unpredictable. Just trust that you will be okay whether he is helpful or not.
Gosh, I'm so tired and irritated with life today I'm not sure that made any sense or if it was harmful vs. helpful. Take what you can use and forget the rest! ;)