I am not posting as much as I used to, due to the fact that I don't feel I have anything to say, or to contribute.
I am feeling like staring into the air, I don't need to do anything. I am normally a quite active person with a couple of projects going on at any given time.
At the moment, I am just...I don't know. I am not totally sad or anything, I feel kind of ...nothing?
I don't feel connected to the baby, at all. I am even worried that I could loose it, since I do not really appreciate it, so I don't really deserve it. KWIM?
I could cry about the other three, because I love them so much, but I cannot really show them, I just want to be left alone.
My husband is not a great help either, he is just not pulling his weight, and I feel really abandoned by him. But I am not really sure if this is due to him or to me.
I don't even know if I should talk to my midwife, since I don't really have anything to say.
I feel like a really lazy person, not doing enough of the work, not caring enough for her kids. I should really pull myself together, but I can't. (feeling sick and vomiting does not help either...)
Anybody with similar feelings?