fmorris: Sorry to hear you/DP have been sick, but how exciting to be planning your wedding!
Jam: wishing you all the patience (that I mostly don't have) for your wait until January. And yay for good insurance coverage, even if it doesn't kick in for a couple of months!
sandiegongp: I totally agree with you that this group is a lifesaver. As someone doing it on my own, it feels especially valuable. I have some people in my life who know I'm TTC, but nobody who wants to hear all the minutiae of the process (see below for lots and lots of said minutiae). And nobody that really knows what I'm going through. It's so nice to come on here and know that everyone understands.
for everyone waiting to O (fmorris28, pookafaye, sandiegongp, DarcySD) and waiting to know (Lea--especially for exciting birthday news).
And, Friederike, I'm crossing my fingers especially hard that those 2 follicles are strong and hearty!
AFM, had the ultrasound and HSG on Friday. No actual results yet on these or the blood tests--won't actually know anything until my appointment on Dec 13.
Honestly, the HSG was horribly painful. This may have been partially my own fault, because they didn't tell me to take Advil in advance of the procedure, and even though I'd read that maybe I should, I thought "well, they didn't say to, I'll just wait and see how I feel after." Bad call. First of all, there was a whole lot of poking around, and not being able to reach my cervix and clamping things and dilating things, and getting a new speculum and starting all over again before they even did the whole dye bit. Not fun, at all
. During this part, the RE (same one from earlier this week who said LP length isn't important) said my cervix was really tightly closed and that he needed to dilate it to get the catheter in, and maybe the "sperm just couldn't get in." At the time, I was in too much pain to think this through, other than thinking "aren't sperm pretty small?" and asking him, "well, if you've dilated my cervix, will it stay more open afterward or will it go back to its previous tightness?" Well, on the drive home (after the ginormous dose of Advil kicked in), I thought to myself, "wait, isn't cervical position and openness one of those things that changes throughout the cycle?" I've never been able to tell how open my cervix is by feel, but I have normal periods, so I imagine it must open up at the usual times in my cycle. Anyway, the cervix is supposed to be closed at CD12 if, like me, you typically don't O until CD14 or later, right? (I'm officially taking everything this guy says with a huge grain of salt.)
Anyway, when the RE finally did the dye injection, only my left tube spilled correctly--the other didn't have any dye go through it at all. Obviously, even if I'm not going to get official results of any of these tests until next month, this is cause for concern. But, I did some reading yesterday, and it turns out that if the apparent blockage in the tube is at the uterus end, this can actually be caused by a spasm, and might not actually mean that tube is blocked (there's a 15% false positive rate because of this type of spasm). Oh, and, I also learned something else crazy and amazing along the way--you'd think that if the tube on one side is blocked, you'd only have a chance of pregnancy in months where you ovulated from the ovary on the unblocked side, but apparently, the open tube can sometimes pick up the egg from the blocked side. You might not have quite as high a chance of pregnancy, but it's not halved by any means. Fascinating!
Anyway, I continue to be skeptical about this RE, and hopeful that the results of all this testing will be academic because I'll get pregnant this cycle and will be able to cancel my follow up with him to talk about whether I can or can't get pregnant in favor of a first prenatal visit. Still hoping for that post-HSG fertility, even if it may be only the one tube!
Also, this was mostly amusing, but the nurse for the HSG clearly didn't know I was queer/using donor sperm and was talking about how TTC can really be stressful on your sex life, but how it was "quality, not quantity," and how the HSG could help with fertility, "so maybe tonight is the night." (For the record, if I was having sex with a guy, nobody
would've been sticking anything anywhere
last night. Ouch at the very thought.) She was being very nice--friendly throughout and solicitous when I was feeling a bit shaky after--and I didn't feel like having a conversation with her about how different from the scenario she was describing my actual life and experience were, so I just nodded and smiled. Yup, maybe tonight's my lucky night... or at least, some afternoon next week when I get a chilled vial of semen via Fedex. A girl can hope, anyway.