Idk what to say other than to reiterate your WTF!!!! I'm sorry. This is such a trying time. This cycle for me was only 27 days (which is still "normal"), but it's not normal for me. I suppose if I weren't TTC, I wouldn't think a thing of it. WHY OH WHY do our bodies do this to us when we are trying so hard??
I'd like to scream this same question too. It was just so ironic to experience my 45 day cycle of miserable symptoms my first month TTC when I've been at 31 days and light symptoms for years now. Now at CD 9, been temping this cycle and using some natural supplementation, keeping my chin up I guess.
I sense a group funk here right now. Too many losses and no BFP''s as of yet. I am thinking of you all right now and so thankful this little mini-community exists to share our feelings when most IRL folks wouldn't relate to our current journeys. Be kind to yourselves. That's me throwing some love around for all of us sans big goofy grin of course.