Thanks Beautifulnm! Sounds like you got a lot done with your shopping!
Can I just vent about how bad a day I am having? And it is only 10 am! I was so crabby yesterday for no real reason but I was so looking forward to going to bed last night and waking up today feeling like a much nicer mommy and happier person. But DH got up at 5:30 to go to work and I got up to pee then and as soon as I was vertical I felt sick. Then I laid in bed trying to decide if I wanted to give in and puke or to fight it off. I ate a couple handfuls of trail mix, burped and felt a little better, but I could NOT fall back to sleep for the life of me. So what did I do instead? I laid there thinking of all the horrible things that could go wrong in a pregnancy or in the newborn stage and then trying to figure out why in the world I was having so much anxiety this pregnancy and how to get rid of it. I ended up getting up around 7:30 and my oldest, who is SUCH a morning person, is just about bouncing off the walls with energy and I just want a few minutes to try and get my head together and eat something so I start snapping at her, which makes me start to tear up because I feel awful for snapping at her. Then this keeps going on while I am trying to feed my youngest and I am just feeling about as low as I could at that point. Luckily DH got home about 9:30 and I basically told him I was leaving (because I had to go return something I had bought) and I would be back in an hour. I hoping to feel better when I got back but as soon as I walked in my youngest was grumbling away (teething/nap time) and my oldest was still bouncing off the walls and shredding some tape off of a toy I had just fixed the day before. I get the youngest to sleep after she throws a bit of a fit and I look over at the couch and DH is sound as sleep. I go into the kitchen and grab my fast food breakfast I had picked up while out (My coffee and sandwich were cold by this time and my orange juice warm) and decide to sit down with DD to watch her cartoon and immediately she starts asking my if she can have my orange juice/sweet bread/sandwich. I am like, "No!" and told DH I was going to go sit upstairs at the computer to eat, ALONE! Really I would just love to eat, take some sort of sleeping pill, and sleep until tomorrow.
I am crabby, emotional, hungry, tired, and basically just want to be left alone. But wanting to be left alone when my DD wants my attention so bad makes me feel like such a B----, and the fact that DH is being less than attentive and helpful this morning is making me a bit resentful towards him too.
I was so hoping for a better day today, And now tomorrow is church and then to MIL for brunch. None of them know I am pregnant yet but me/the baby got really hungry this week and now I am definitely showing so it is pretty unavoidable that they will find out tomorrow. I just want to or go back to sleep