A little late with this intro! Also, I changed my username from whitneymcmike... wanted something a little more anonymous
EDD: 12/1, sex is a surprise!
I'm Whitney, 30 years old and pregnant with my first child. I live on the central coast of California with my husband, Ryan, who I married last year in November on the beach that is just a block from our front door. We have both worked in hospitality primarily, I worked mostly in wine and then culinary arts, Ryan in restaurant management. I, however, have recently moved on to pursue a doctorate degree in naturopathic medicine. I am currently a full-time student doing prerequisite work for med school, though I plan to switch to part-time once baby comes. We keep busy with our work but enjoy a slow paced home life centered around simple activities like reading, gardening, cooking, baking, hanging clothes on the line, and generally taking it easy.
What am I anxious about regarding birth... we are planning a homebirth and I am just generally a little anxious about having a first baby at home, fear of the unknown sort of thing. I wonder what I will be like during labor and birth, I can't even seem to come up with a prediction of how I may react. I hope I can handle it, that I am strong enough. I am confident in my birth team though and am so glad that we decided to hire a doula for that extra support and help for an inexperienced mama. I'm also financially a little stressed as a hospital transfer would mean doubling the cost of this birth, trying really hard not to let that invade my head space though as it is a really unproductive worry.
Excited about... not being anxious anymore! Excited to cross the threshold into motherhood, to go through such a tremendous, challenging and hopefully empowering experience of labor/birth, and to see what is on the other side. It's funny, even though I know there is a baby in my belly and I feel it moving with me all the time I feel like I constantly forget that there is a child at the end of all this... that we are going to be parents... that a little stranger is coming that we get to know. Most of all, I can't wait to feel like a mom.
Speaking of hip pain, I recently purchased an arnica salve that I rub on my hips before bedtime that really seems to be helping. I'm definitely going to try the epsom salts bath too, if nothing else it just sounds so nice and relaxing and I think I need to focus on relaxing/focusing inward more from here until birth. 36+4 today, man oh man.
Oh and I had my first baby dream last night! I was so excited for some reason, been feeling like a weirdo that I haven't dreamt about that at all. I dreamt of a little red-headed boy... can't wait to see if I am right!