Oct.30th I woke up and realized, if I dont have this baby by the end of the month(which was very soon approaching), I might just finally have a melt down after being so strong all month long. Thinking that my "due date" was originally Oct.1st or 2nd I was determined to at least have an October baby at this point, even if it meant the very last day of the month. Through out the day I had this strong urge to get the final finishing touches done, we still needed a pump for the birthing pool, we had blown it up almost a week before and the old pump broke when we were nearly done. My partner said that he thought we still had another week before we had this baby, I reminded him to just stay positive and I felt like it could truly be any moment, even though I was showing no true signs of labor at that point. So it was a Wednesday evening around 7 pm and I insisted we go to the store, I wanted to do a bit of walking as I was having my typical light rushes that Id been having for weeks and I felt that I wanted to help them progress. My partner and son went to get the pump as I gazed around the flower/plant section, I started feeling more intense feelings and thought for a moment that "this could be the day". When we got back to the car I told my honey how I was feeling and that I thought Id call my midwife, Kaiajade, he thought I was crazy and it seemed too early to call, I think he was used to me being pregnant he thought it would last forever like I did! I put in the call and my midwife knew right away that this was the night but I certainly didnt believe her, she said to call back after timing a few when I got home. Upon arriving home I began to time the rushes while bouncing on the birthing ball, lasting about 45 seconds to a minute long and about 3-5 minutes apart and I timed about 6 of them...thats when I knew this had to be real, I may just actually not be pregnant forever!!! I put in the call to Kaiajade and by that point I was having trouble talking through the rushes, then she insisted that she was on her way and probably should have left the 1st time I called. She thought I was going to have a fast labor/birth and lived an hour and a half away and she did NOT want to miss it since we had become so close in the past 9 mths, she has been like family to us, truly a blessing! I told her it seemed too early, I was all giddy and laughing and told her, "This CANT be labor, can it?! Im smiling and laughing during a rush!" We hung up the phone and I told my partner who was watching a movie with our son that Kaiajade was on her way, he looked at me and said,"For real?!" I told him,"This baby is finally coming and its happening tonight!" He hopped up off the couch and we began to finish pumping up the pool and laying out the tarp and towels, good thing we got that pump! Our son was super excited running around the house following each of us around while we gathered things and straightened up. By this time it was about 930 pm and I called Kaiajade who was on her way still and I asked if it were too early to call my friend who was also taking the birth photos, she said to have her come right away. I then sent out a text to all the women who came to my blessingway and told them to light their candles and think of me and the baby, I was FINALLY in labor! Thats when it felt so surreal and I had to start stopping for a break during a rush. I then had bloody show and lost the entire mucus plug, there was no turning back now! It was time for my son to sleep so I had my honey lay down with him in our family bed and he went to sleep within minutes(thank goodness). I put on my birthing play list I had made just days before and lit my beeswax labor candles around my alter, it was more beautiful than I envisioned! The candle light reflected off the fish tank with the pool right next to it so I could stare at my fish while in labor which was very tranquil. At this point it was about 1030 pm and I had to stop and get on all fours during a rush but was able to get up after and get back to my normal self again, I had my quartz crystal in one fist and an amethyst in the other, kept making trips to the bathroom(I couldnt stop pooping, sorry tmi), I kept drinking fluids to stay hydrated, flavored coconut water and raspberry leaf tea with honey. About 1115 pm my midwife showed up with a friend who was her backup, my 2nd midwife could not make it since she was at another birth and my primary midwife will not do a birth alone. I had not met Deeanne before this but when she came in my house wearing a tie-dye shirt I thought for some reason,"shes ok in my book!" and luckily they showed up in between rushes so I could properly meet her. Within minutes of them arriving I had a rush again, Kaiajade started checking babies heart tones during the rush and Deeanne immediately started helping me through it with her calm voice and words of encouragement. My friend Katie who was taking pictures showed up around 1130 pm. So now we were all gathered together for the big show! I continued to make trips back and forth to the bathroom while my partner finished filling up the tub, my labor was progressing rather fast and Kaiajade said that would happen the more time I spent on the toilet. I was then having to moan through each rush and no sooner would they stop Id feel another one coming on again. It was definitely time to get in the pool! And OH my goodness did that feel awesome! My partner was doing everything I asked of him before labor started, which was pretty much nothing but thats what I wanted, I asked him to just be there for me and give me words of encouragement, leave the rest to the birthing team. I really felt that I needed that maternal love and help from the midwife mainly and he understood my needs and let the ladies do their birth work. He was more of a help just with his presence next to me and an occasional grab of his shirt during an intense rush. I remember feeling so tired and yawning in between rushes and everyone laughing at me. Then when one would pick back up I would look deep within and imagine my cervix opening up like a blooming rose, this visualization truly helped me open I believe. Im not sure of the time by this point but I remember being in the tub on my knees mostly and draped over the side, then I had this sudden urge to lay on my side and wiggle about letting my body float, I asked my honey to hold on to me and not let me fall in. I kept up with this wiggling motion and felt my rushes one on top of the other and thought to my self,"What?! Wheres my break in between?!" I finally came out of that enough to get back to my knees and drape my arms over the side, holding onto my honeys shoulders and I suddenly felt my waters break and a sudden urge to poop(again?) and told everyone what happened, at this time it was 1 am. Right after that my body began pushing there was no holding back. I told them Im pushing and I couldnt stop it though I was never intentionally pushing, my body and baby were working together. During the next rush I felt her head crowning and reached down to see if I was stretching well enough. It was REALLY intense at that point but not nearly as bad as I had expected and read about in other birth stories. Then came the most wonderful sensation and my favorite part, I felt the cervical lip move over the babies head, felt like when you put a really tight turtle neck on and wiggle your head through. It was just complete relief to get her head out but for some reason I didnt believe her head was in fact out because it happened so fast. A minute passed by, it was 1:01 am and I told everyone that I was sorry(I couldnt keep from pooping AGAIN), Kaiajade was trying to keep it from getting on my babies face since her head was facing up towards my butt, I felt so bad but at the same time knew that was what my body obviously needed to do to get the baby out so I quit caring. My partner was planning on catching the baby and was in complete shock when they said,"We have a head!" He asked if I could remove my claws from his back so he could catch the baby but at this point I couldnt move and needed him there with me while I draped over the pool, I kindly removed my claws from his flesh and grabbed his shirt instead. At 1:03 am with the next and immediate rush her little body slid out of me, Kaiajade pushed her through my legs and replied,"Catch your baby Mama!" I brought her up to my chest and swiveled around to sit and lean back with the baby to my chest, I grabbed both of her legs, spread them and saw that she was a GIRL!!! I think the 1st thing I said was,"We have a daughter!" Followed by,"I knew it was you the whole time, Ill never doubt my intuition again!" She was slightly blue but pinked up rather fast, she didnt cry, just opened her eyes and stared at us and I said,"Is it normal for her to be so calm?" I thought well of course, she was just born naturally, peacefully at home by candle light! Couldnt get more peaceful than that! I spent only a few minutes in the pool after she was born, I just had to get out of that gross water! We had a dry space for us to go right outside of the pool so I managed to get out with no help and relaxed next to the wood burning stove so we could stay warm and deliver the placenta. It didnt come out until 45 minutes later so we basically sat there basking in our newborn glow and had some more photos taken. After the placenta finally came out we cleaned up and went to the couch to finally relax comfortably and nursed for about the next 2 hrs straight, what a champ! My son woke up around 3 am and came out to meet his new sister, he was so excited and happy, even tried to latch on as well when I wasnt looking, it was adorable!
Our baby girl, Izell Winonah Autumn had joined us earthside after only 3 minutes of our bodies working together and a 4 hour labor that was intense for about 2 hrs...weighing in at 7 lbs 12 oz and 21 inches long!
Its been a week and I STILL cant believe I have a girl! I HAVE A GIRL!!!
(Whenever my birth photos are done being edited Ill post a few as well)
Edited by Irielyn - 11/8/13 at 5:59am