It was almost a year ago when I came to this forum with the new that dh's cousin had died of a suicide. He was suffering from severe depression.
Yesterday, I attended the funeral of a friend and former co-worker. He suffered from the same fate. He had been dealing with severe depression for a few years now. He was being medicated, but as we know, doses sometimes need to be changed as things happen. His grandmother died 2 weeks previous, and I guess in his altered reality, he just couldn't take it anymore. I never thought he would do this. I had talked to him about his depression on several occasions over the years. He used to confide in me, as I have an education in Psychology and he knew that I understood and would not judge. He told me he was sick of people telling him to "snap out of it". He knew about dh's cousin and what had happened to him. I remember how upset he was when I told him what dh's cousin had done.
I've been on maternity leave from work since September. The last time I saw him was at my office's Christmas party in December. I'm really kicking myself for not calling him, or coming in to the office more than I did. Chances are slim that I could have made any difference....... but the thought and guilt still goes through my head.
He was a wonderful man. I will miss him. He was one of those people that made going to work a pleasant experience. I can't even imagine what his wife is going through. They dated since they were 15 years old....... lived together since they were 19 and got married a couple of years ago. He was 35. I think about her often. There were no children.
It's just so very tragic and sad.
Yesterday, I attended the funeral of a friend and former co-worker. He suffered from the same fate. He had been dealing with severe depression for a few years now. He was being medicated, but as we know, doses sometimes need to be changed as things happen. His grandmother died 2 weeks previous, and I guess in his altered reality, he just couldn't take it anymore. I never thought he would do this. I had talked to him about his depression on several occasions over the years. He used to confide in me, as I have an education in Psychology and he knew that I understood and would not judge. He told me he was sick of people telling him to "snap out of it". He knew about dh's cousin and what had happened to him. I remember how upset he was when I told him what dh's cousin had done.
I've been on maternity leave from work since September. The last time I saw him was at my office's Christmas party in December. I'm really kicking myself for not calling him, or coming in to the office more than I did. Chances are slim that I could have made any difference....... but the thought and guilt still goes through my head.
He was a wonderful man. I will miss him. He was one of those people that made going to work a pleasant experience. I can't even imagine what his wife is going through. They dated since they were 15 years old....... lived together since they were 19 and got married a couple of years ago. He was 35. I think about her often. There were no children.
It's just so very tragic and sad.
