Like my gypsy self I am getting antsy now. I've changed so much throughout this pregnancy... I was hoping my fiance would change with me. This isn't really the case and I find myself judging him and mad at him most of the day. We're certainly doing the best we can to get through pregnancy, but I feel I want to go stay with my parents in another state. They have more money and I'm used to that comfort when I need it. My fiance just got fired from his job and took a job for less money and it makes me feel like he's not maturing in this process with me. Anyway, just needing to vent. Feeling lonely in the mountains lately, I'm so used to snowboarding and dancing all the time to get my mind off things but I'm too big now. I know I can't continue to run away from everything, so I guess I should stay put. I'm just learning how important family really is to me, want to be near my parents even though we see nearly everything differently. I used to trust my man so much, and now I feel unsupported. Sex has been extremely uncomfortable for months, and I feel disconnected from him now that I have no interest in being sexual.
I'm so excited for my first born child, why can't I just pep up and find some faith?!