[longer than intended; apologies and feel free to skip it]
I have calmed down significantly now, and I am glad I didn't write about it earlier, but I gotta just make a quick statement about my Thanksgiving. It was awful.
I said clearly that it was okay with me so long as it was really low stress and I didn't have to do anything if I didn't feel up to it. Well, I mostly avoided work, but not completely (since there's always somebody popping in saying, "where is . . . ?").
Stress-wise it was a mess, partly because of the above continuous questions, but mostly because I, and my nutritional needs were ignored.
We didn't officially eat until after 8:30 PM! That is a heluva long time to keep a pregnant woman waiting, lying to her hour after hour that it's almost ready. The food was mostly inedible to me because of the way it was seasoned and ingredients used even though we had discussed it earlier. There was little to no decent snackable food for me because all the space/effort was on the main meal. I did make a conscious effort to eat and drink, but I was also trying to zone out with TV because my stress reactions were getting worse and I was trying to not have another attack. Placating and being a "good girl" in these situations just made things worse in the end.
So weak with nutritional imbalance and blood sugar malfunction (and the absence of any real hunger pangs to compound the confusion) I lost it - tantrum style. And because it was in part from imbalance and low sugar, it just kept going. And then again later in the middle of the night, waking me up.
I walked into the room they were eating and just got a little snack for my self and went back to my own room.
Thank goodness for near-hubby, who also stressed wasn't the perfect representation of gentlemanly behavior, but at least kept coming back and trying.
Has anything like this happened to any of you? I feel like it keeps happening and I thought I had figured out how to stop/slow it down.
Is this something you've seen/treated in your kids (despite them all being perfect and adorable)? When I was younger they would say I would just go into "rages", but I thought I had narrowed down the main triggers to chemicals and malnutrition (which is still some aspect of it).
The approaches are mostly shut-her-up whether it's pharmaceutical or herbal, but I am positive some basic physiological need is unmet and that the problem will not resolve well until that is done. This resurgence is certainly pregnancy-related and seemed to get worse after the first weeks of poor eating.
For the record I used oils and magnesium with some short-term success to calm, but they wear off fairly soon and the problem underneath seems worse.
After a couple days of really feeling better this was a nasty, ill-timed surprise. Trying not to get too discouraged about it and hope I can recover more tonight since all systems were disrupted. Today I've got headaches, body aches, lethargy and digestive confusion.