Ok, I'm a little crazy with the title, but I'm kind of loopy-happy today.
I got the contract from the publisher for my pagan cookbook! We are officially a "go"!
How's your December treating you thus far?
Congrats, yay! I had a wonderful November....December is starting out a little rocky. I'm really depressed. Not about the holidays. There's just something that's ongoing in my relationship that I can't seem to get past. Sometimes it really irks/hurts/etc and other times it's *shrug*, practice acceptance....right now it's really acute and feels like I suck.
Maia - Hugs! I hope the month improves for you. It's him, not you!
Wolf - Yay on the book. Do you have a release date?
New moon blessings mama! We didn't observe the first new moon after E's birth, but I hope to ease back into it today. I used to try to clean the whole house to get rid of old negative energy from the last moon cycle, but that totes won't happen today. I do hope to get around to doing a tarot reading for me and my big kids, but that's it. I hope it will bring clarity for my goal for this moon cycle. We've had a string of bad luck the last few months, and I hope to improve it.
Wolfcat: I LOVE your punny title this month. It will make me smile every time I see it. Congrats on your contract!! So exciting!
revolting: blessings for clarity, mama! I hope you get some good energy coming in your world. How's the babykins? How are you feeling?
I do a reading with the Goddess Guidance Oracle Cards every new moon. I have been using them for years. My reading today was unclear to me. DH and I have a lot of changes coming, I think, that are unknown in their consequences which I think makes my reading unclear. He is on the verge of possibly switching new jobs which is scary, but I think the new one could be much more creative for him. As for me, I am taking on a larger role on a board I am involved with and also *finally* giving a presentation to the local attachment parenting group on cloth diapering and my CD service!! woohoo!! NERVES, though, for goddess' sake! I need to QUIET MYSELF - that voice inside that is constantly trying to be ready for the "whatifs" OYYYY!!!!
Thanks for the hugs, mamas.
Mostly it IS him, but because of that, I'm an insufferable b*tch...he can't stand the yelling, I'm yelling because I'm concerned, yadda yadda...there's lots more, but I'm in a horrible way. And he doesn't want to be around me when I'm like that, but mamas, he can't even get into gmail anymore. This has been getting more and more acute since he stopped working. He is the smartest computer and math guy on the planet and he can't figure out gmail. It's SO frustrating. And he just shrugs and gives up as if that's a new normal. There's lots and lots more. He's shutting down right in front of my eyes, and he thinks I am just nagging. Sex...well, let's just say mostly it has been improving, but I'm ALWAYS the initiator, and I just don't have the energy to add that to my plate, too, especially when there's a 50/50 chance (or less) of the answer being No.
I'm just.so.freaking.TIRED. of negativity. Him, my ds, I want to divorce them both right now. It's such a vicious circle.
*hugs* Maia. If you ever need to talk/vent, I'm here if you want to PM me. I've mostly been lurking because I have zero energy to contribute, especially to study more into paganism, like I want, but I wanted to extend the offer and lend an ear, even if it's just to commiserate. I'm going through some relationship stuff as well.
He's determined to make things right-- he says he is NOT going to lose me under any circumstance, so, we'll see. He has an appt with the prescribing nurse at the end of the month, so in the meanwhile, we'll just have to hang in there and try to figure it all out ourselves.
M, in the meanwhile, has to get intentionally not lazy. I mean, he'll make a quick sandwich over, say, making Ramen noodles, because the noodles involve using a pot, which he would then have to clean. He's gotten THAT bad. I've noticed his dishes aren't really all that clean anymore, anyway.
And he won't get up off the damn computer chair-- he sits and stares at that screen all.day.long. It's got TV in it, too, so he's watching TV or using the computer. At least he's not using it socially (he does read electronics books on there and stuff) but still.
He used to be vigilant about cleaning.
He hasn't cleaned his place in like 6 months or more. Last week I found out that he was wearing the same socks for three days (and he's anal about personal hygiene-- or, was) because he needed to do laundry and was too lazy to load the laundry basket in his car when coming over here so he could do the laundry here.
I mean it's really pathetic, and I think in a pathological way, and I don't know what to do except yell in a very concerned manner...but that's not productive at all.
It won't be until late '14 or early '15. They are going to be doing some new-to-them formatting for it, so it'll take a bit longer then usual. They are also looking at doing color photos (which is a pretty big deal since color printing is so much more expensive for them). I've got the contract signed and sent, though, so
It is. And yes, he is. He has an appt at the end of December, and we'll have to look at getting his meds adjusted. I don't think he's been entirely honest with the prescribing nurse. I will see if I can go with, this time.
That is so cool. You must be so happy! I would be!
MM Leslie! I know ONE other Pagan from TX...that has got to be difficult, no? I hear so much about conservative Christians out thataway.
I have one son, age 12. He'll be 13 in January. M is my True Love and we just got engaged on my birthday (11/17)
Oh, for the rest of you: Things were at a low with M, and my attitude didn't help any...we got busy and got happy again, of course He was like "I can't believe she (meaning me) gets that illin' without sex and then she's just fine after...can it affect someone's mood THAT much??"...um, yeah, you betcha! LOL.
I'm sure you hear too much about conservative TX, Leslie. Hope I didn't push any buttons!
Though, when I moved to Asheville, NC, which is a super crunchy-granola oasis in a sea of southern Baptists, there were no Pagan groups that were kid friendly, either *sigh*....so I created them. And, I stepped up and helped with kid activities (and in some instances, created those, too) at the local public ritual/potlucks. If you want to do that in your area, I'd be happy to help! Though, like I said, my kid is 12 now and it's been awhile, but I do remember some stuff.
We just moved to MA after a whole lotta years in NC, so I haven't really found my Pagan niche up here yet. And ds is now totally uninterested in religions of any sort. M is Catholic. So mostly it's just me, now, Pagan-wise
All those lovely chemical reactions and happiness released to the brain after some nookie! wahooo!!
Hi Leslie! Welcome!
We have a local museum that has a holiday tree display today with Z. Many of the local organizations decorate a tree and then they have displays from different countries and beliefs including Hanukkah, a Bodhi Day display, Diwali, etc. There was even an explanation "yule-tree" which was awesome to see!
Well, I don't have autism, and loud noise bothers me, too but, our rituals were never loud. They'd get between 20 and 50 people, but always quiet and respectful. I hope you find something that fits your family!
You think? Are there really? You'd think I'd know that. But yeah, we both get idgity and then we have sex and things are fine again for awhile
I think a lot of the problem is we have to kind of force the mood, #1 because I work now, and only have certain times when I'm available when ds isn't home, and #2, well, the Viagra thing. You have a window of opportunity, with that stuff. He has a much lower drive than I do, so forcing the mood is a PITA. But when we manage to be successful, it's wonderful I just have to remember that when it's NOT optimum, ALL acts of love and pleasure are Her rituals
That's cool about all the trees, Vydalea.
It's snowy and icy here today, and the schools are on a 2 hour delay, which is a PITA because ds has to be at the bus stop the same time as I have to be at work. Ugh. I'm going to call in late, I think.