I am a mother of two girls, ages 3 and 6. I have been having very strong feelings about wanting to TTC. After a few conversations with DH he finally agreed to "consider getting off of birth control and just see what happens". Yesterday I had an appointment to have my IUD removed. He knew about the appointment but was still "considering" and had not given me a final answer. Yesterday morning before he left to work we had a short but final discussion about the matter. I needed to know whether or not to go to the appointment or cancel. He said NO. He says he is just happy with the family we have now and feels no need or want for another.
I am absolutely devastated. I feel such a strong want and need for another. I know I don't just want to have a baby and go through the cute baby phase. I want to be pregnant and feel a human baby growing inside of me. I want to give our two girls a younger sibling. I want to expand our family. I want to raise another child. I am trying to not be angry at DH, but since yesterday we have not spoken and I find it difficult to even look at him. I have cried and cried. I think about it constantly. I am so upset I cry on and off all day. I am afraid I am going into a state of depression. I don't want to be resentful for the rest of my life but I am afraid I will always look back and think and wish what could have been. Has anyone else gotten through this? What do I do???