I have a 14 week baby boy, and I breastfed for the first week, but due to various issues I had to give up and give him formula instead. I was so sure I would succeed with him as I had failed with my daughter, but once again it went horribly wrong. But ever since then I've had the most awful guilt for not breastfeeding him, and I'm finding it very difficult to accept that I didn't manage to breastfeed. I'm constantly going over it in my head, wishing I had done things differently and worrying that I've compromised his future health. Whenever breastfeeding is mentioned online, or when a friend is successfully breastfeeding I just feel like a complete failure, and the guilt is renewed.
On top of all that I feel embarrassed to bottle feed him in public, and fear peoples' disapproval. It doesn't help that our homeschooling groups tend to have a lot of lactivist types, which makes me feel even worse. I've yet to go to a group since his birth for this reason.
How can I get over these feelings? I just feel like I've completely let down both of my children.