I've reached the point at which our previous baby stopped growing (I didn't know and didn't miscarry for another 3 weeks). Our loss was also an unplanned pregnancy. I felt like I had just gotten to the point of embracing that pregnancy when we lost it. I feel like I'm on the cusp of that this time. I keep oscillating between hoping this baby sticks and hoping this pregnancy ends like our other surprise...followed by major guilt...rinse, repeat. I'll be so happy when I get out of this limbo. Unfortunately, my appointment is not until Feb 10th.
my latest miscarriage was at 8 weeks and whenever i pass that point, i breathe so much deeper b/c i have hope that it will stick. but yes, i have had pregnancies where at that point i'm slightly disappointed that it does....
it's so challenging, at least if you're really honest w/ yourself. i wish i had more filters or versions of stories to tell myself. meanwhile, here's for peace!!!