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January 2014 Chat Thread!

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C&Ping @sgsnyder's post in the December thread to get us started...

 

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sshh, I know I'm twelve hours too late, but I honestly have no good questions to start a January (January!!!) thread. Please forgive me.

 

How is mama?

 

Sick! Again. But I managed to convince DH to take Olive downstairs this morning so that I could sleep in (for the second or third time ever) and when I ran down to the bathroom to puke I interrupted them making me carrot-apple-kale juice. I didn't even know he knew how to operate the juicer! I'm totally blown away still.

 

How is hubby?

 

He needs baby boot camp. I'm finally realizing this. I try to be sensitive to his introverted and Aspergers tendencies, and I understand when Olive wants only me, but cooommmeee ooooonnn. We agreed to coparent. I understand that that looks different for everyone, but I think that my doing 97% of baby care is a little disproportional. Any ideas, wise women?

 

How is baby?

 

She's ridiculous. She's into climbing things now. I'll look over and she'll be bellied onto the coffee table, feet wiggling above the floor. She scrambles into her mini Ikea chair and holds onto the back, beaming at us and waiting for someone to push her around.


AAAAGGHHmorelater

 

Edit: ok. Hubby's working on the van and I've distracted Olive with a few well-timed snap pea crisps. And I'm actually on the computer now.

Last December... huh. Anyone else have this crazy amnesia? I remember wearing a red sweater when she was in my belly. I remember having the time and energy to pull things together for myself and my employer. I remember not being "allowed" to carry heavy things, which was difficult because she'd just moved to a new house and had thrown ALL of the unpacked boxes into the basement. So I was trying to work as hard as possible before Olive came, and money was tight. I don't think I was "allowed" to buy presents for people last year, either.

This December was really busy, at least until the 21st, because I was trying to get my employer's house ready for a giant holiday party. DH ran out on some "secret" errands in the days leading up to Christmas, which was funny 'cause we never can afford gifts. He wrapped some things for me, despite my adamant protestations, and made some dumb comment about being sad that there weren't any surprises for himself. Ugh! So Olive and I got up early on Christmas morning and ran to CVS and printed some pictures for him and pulled together some silly gifts from the empty store shelves.

My family rented a house in Delaware for the week of Christmas and somehow expected us to join them, but they didn't factor in our work schedules or the difficulty of traveling with a ten-month-old or the fact that we had to spend some time with DH's family. They were sad we didn't go, and gave us sweet little guilt trips. I invited them over for New Year's Eve to celebrate Christmas, and that was nice. I LIKE having people come to Olive's familiar territory - it's so much easier!

(I'm sorry for sharing my moodiness and for blaming everything on others. I AM feeling like a victim, and I am feeling sorry for myself. Maybe my resolution should be taking responsibility for my feelings in 2014... and to laugh more!!)

I've skimmed some of the posts in this thread, but missed a lot - sending love for all of your respective battles, dreams, achievements, etc...

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Sorry to be a Debbie Downer, mamas! I love the support we offer each other, and I hope it doesn't look like I'm begging for it. I definitely want to contribute more, and I'm figuring out how. I wish MDC was as easy as FB to navigate on a cellphone! FB is much easier for me to keep up with, unfortunately. :/

Let me throw out some questions to deviate some attention from my earlier post wink1.gif

Happy 2014! How did you spend your New Year's Eve? FTMs, how was last night different from last year's celebration (or lack thereof)? BTDT Mamas, how have the years shaped your traditions?

Resolutions aside, is there anything you'd love to see happen (for yourself, your family, the world, whatever) in the coming year? What steps are needed to get to your happiest place?

How are you - mentally, emotionally, physically? How are your relationships? How's your BABY? orngbiggrin.gif
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Commenting so I can find this easier in stupid tapatalk.
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Happy 2014! How did you spend your New Year's Eve? FTMs, how was last night different from last year's celebration (or lack thereof)? BTDT Mamas, how have the years shaped your traditions? 

Happy 2014 back at all y'all! We had lit'rally the lamest NYE ever this year. ha! Last year we did a nine course romantic dinner for two at a swank restaurant. It was lovely and cozy and just the right amount of celebrating-without-getting-crunk-at-the-club. Yanno? But this year, we live in a REALLY rural small town and have a baby who goes to sleep at 8 and needs mama's boob in her face all night. So, husband made dinner- just a Mexican-ish casserole- we had a few beers between us since he's trying to collect more amber bottles for his homebrew. And we watched a few episodes of Breaking Bad huddled up in bed. We went to sleep at 11. meh. 

Resolutions aside, is there anything you'd love to see happen (for yourself, your family, the world, whatever) in the coming year? What steps are needed to get to your happiest place?

I'd really like to get babygirl settled into her own sleeping space within the year. That's big for me. I'd like to find strength/patience to be supportive of my husband's continued medical schooling. I really need to figure out how to get back into a good fitness regimen. I'm toying with the idea of taking nursing pre-req's this year. But I'm just not sure if that's where our family is headed. Or if we're going to start planning for #2. Or both! Steps needed? I'm not even sure. Everything feels awfully complicated/difficult due to living in such a small/rural town, 2000 miles away from family, with my husband's ambitions taking up the bulk of our money and time. Plus being a first time mom. I don't know how to get to a place where my goals/dreams are at the forefront, and I don't know if I just need to take a step back and realize that this year is a different kind of season.

How are you - mentally, emotionally, physically? How are your relationships? How's your BABY? 

I was fine for awhile, but I've been really angsty and frustrated lately with feeling TRAPPED. Like, there's nothing to do in this town. Like, even if there were something I wanted to do (which, actually, the ONE cool thing I'd like to get into is yoga at the studio. but it's way too expensive and I don't have anyone to watch the baby) I'm the primary caretaker and don't have money for childcare. I'm thinking of doing the local babysitting co-op, but (I know this sounds selfish/weird) I'm just not into others' kids and don't want to watch them. haha. Plus I'm not keen on leaving Margot with strangers just yet. I guess that makes me a bad candidate.

 

I just feel really complain-y. Really resentful of being "the mom"- because, for most families and especially Catholic ones like ours, the mom is the one that does everything around the house and takes care of the babies. The husband gets to GO and DO. And I'm feeling hampered by that. And annoyed. I didn't even really want to get married/have kids before I met my husband- but I fell in love and was convinced otherwise. And now, even though I LOVE my baby (obviously) and love my husband, I feel like "what happened?! where did my dreams go? is this really my life? laundry and cooking and entertaining a preverbal creature?" Feeling all the feelings. And just mad as heck at the world and myself. I'm mad at myself for not being one of those moms who just so totally loves everything about being a stay at home wife/mom, for making my husband feel guilty for his super noble ambitions. For being so dang complicated! because the thing is, as much as I'd love to go back to school and be able to work, I HATE the idea of  leaving my sweet Margot. Oy.

 

Hoping all of you are in better states of mind! And wishing joy, peace, love, and health for you and your families in this new year. xoxox

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you are not a downer. everyone needs to let it out sometimes, it's healthy. and our little group is wonderfully supportive. if i had contact with you all IRL, i'd be set.

 

naomi went pee in her potty 3 mornings in a row. i think this is how i'll start with the potty business. i think that's what i'm calling it now. "potty business"

 

new years eve i was asleep by 9 and oh i made samosas. and yesterday we had family over for brunch/hang out. i don't drink, like i would like to drink a glass of wine every now and then, but i really don't like it. it's just too much now. a sip maybe, but even my favorite wines aren't drinkable anymore. all alcohol. but i was never a drinker anyway. shrug.gif <--stole buko's thing for this one. :)

 

my 'resolution' last year was "to be the best mother i can possibly be." and i think i am just going to keep this resolution each year. as long as i am a great mama, i feel like the rest of my life falls into place. i'm happier, baby's happier, hubby's happier. little things don't really bother me. i smile a ton, i laugh a lot. i love so much i feel like i'm going to spill onto the floor in a messy mommy puddle. 

 

naomi is having a hard time sleeping lately with teething. i caved and gave her some little remedies acetaminophen last night. i love this crazy baby. who wants to talk SO BAD. she points at everything and says "this? this?" amongst other amazing things. back to it!

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Happy 2014! How did you spend your New Year's Eve? FTMs, how was last night different from last year's celebration (or lack thereof)?

 

It was kind of awesome.  I am resolving to reduce screen time (MDC is an exception), so we were actually eating a nice dinner and drinking wine and TALKING about our lives and goals... which is not so say we don't do that (since we both WAH part time, we do see and talk to each other plenty), but after baby went to bed, there was a significant amount of "watching a show" (that we didn't really enjoy all that much) "together" while we looked at our iPhones.  Blah.  Anyway, we didn't turn on the TV to even watch the ball drop (we are east coasters), so we looked up and it was 12:03.  LOL.  It was great. 

 

Last year, my BILs were in town, so we had them over for dinner and a chill NYE along with my brother and his GF.  Honestly, we haven't ever gone out on NYE in 18 years (have worked a couple as bartenders, etc.-- big $$ to be made).  But we also have never gone out for Valentine's Day or Mother's Day...  Too many years working in restaurants and bars to find it appealing to go out on mass-go-out holidays, KWIM?

Resolutions aside, is there anything you'd love to see happen (for yourself, your family, the world, whatever) in the coming year? What steps are needed to get to your happiest place?

 

Too much to get in right now-- just have a few minutes.  But, lots!

How are you - mentally, emotionally, physically? How are your relationships? How's your BABY? orngbiggrin.gif

 

Pretty good (me), with loads of room for improvement, especially physically and from a financial and professional/career/dreams POV.  Baby is great, BUT... we will be facing a big challenge this week, so advice is welcomed!

 

DH (who does at least 40% of child care during waking hours!  And 70% of chores!) is going away for an entire week on a business trip.

Obviously baby and I need to get out of the house to maintain sanity. Luckily Miss L. is an extrovert and loves the outdoors, BUT...

1) She is (for the first time) (maybe/sorta/could be allergies) sick. This stinks (congestion, clear runny nose), but she's not in terrible spirits, though nursing is a pain for her. However, she can't be taken around people with suboptimal immune systems. So, we might not be able to hang out with people who would actually be home during the day, like my BFF (with newborn-- yay!  VBAC!) or my grandmother.

Also, she is in the middle of peak Wonder Weeks (fussy developmental phase) AND the doctor confirmed she is right in the middle of getting her first year *molars*. Which, duh-- it's obvious.  And teeth have never bothered her before, but she is GNAWING and ear-pulling and you can see them almost through.

Plus...

2) Weather coming from the North Pole (windchill below zero), including frozen sidewalks, kinda precludes our daily hour-long walks, etc.

 

I will be mall-walking a bit and I can think of a COUPLE places to visit where she won't be shunned, but...  Help!

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Hi everyone! Happy New Year! I feel like it's been ages since I've indulged myself in a late night on the computer. I know I'll regret this later. Oh well.

 

Happy 2014! How did you spend your New Year's Eve? FTMs, how was last night different from last year's celebration (or lack thereof)? BTDT Mamas, how have the years shaped your traditions?

 

I spent New Years having a very quiet visit with some friends while suffering from a stomach flu. We usually don't do much for New Years as it's always such an expensive gong-show to try to go out on that night. We have in the past just spent it with family and that's likely how we'll continue the tradition.

Resolutions aside, is there anything you'd love to see happen (for yourself, your family, the world, whatever) in the coming year? What steps are needed to get to your happiest place?

 

Such a great question....

 

1) Find a middle ground with DH with our work/hobbies/family balance. Right now he's got the dream job and is taking lots of time out for his passion projects and I'm often left holding the towel. I'm not really furious and I definitely want to tread lightly as I have the utmost respect for my partners passions and dreams. I just want a few of my own again too.

 

2) I'd like to see myself doing a bit more work and adding another activity to each week for myself and hopefully I'd like to develop more friends through a new activity

 

3) Buy a house. In the past weeks we've finally put the last bit of our planned down-payment in the bank. Come March we'll hopefully be released from a contract keeping us in LA and can choose where we want to live and grow as a family. I'm so excited about this goal finally coming to fruition. It's taken 10 years to get this far. 

 


How are you - mentally, emotionally, physically? How are your relationships? How's your BABY?

 

I think we're pretty good. I have to keep reminding myself that it's OK to be really attached to my baby at this stage. Lots of pressure out there for me to rush him along but he needs to nurse a lot and I'm fine with that. I've had some hormone mood swings but generally I'm on a even keel and am still rocking the happy breastfeeding high.

 

Physically, my immune system is DEAD. I've just had the most awful 6 weeks beginning with mastitis and then two really bad colds in a row followed by stomach flu. I haven't really been sick in the last 7 years. I feel like I now need to hit the reset button. Baby's immunity is awesome though. He had the sniffles once in all that. 

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i miss you mamas, how is everyone doing?

 

do any of your babies (or have your kids when they were babes) slept on their bellies? naomi wants to roll over onto her belly all the time but she doesn't seem to know what to do with her head. like, she just keeps it in the bed face down and it scares me so i roll her over into the nook of my arm. 

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i miss you mamas, how is everyone doing?

 

do any of your babies (or have your kids when they were babes) slept on their bellies? naomi wants to roll over onto her belly all the time but she doesn't seem to know what to do with her head. like, she just keeps it in the bed face down and it scares me so i roll her over into the nook of my arm. 


Mine does... or, rather, sleeps in all kinds of positions, including her belly (probably 25% of the time).  She almost always has her head to the side, but when she doesn't, I might maybe try to coax it... but... I think at this age, it's not a major issue?  Don't take my word for it, but if s/he really couldn't breathe, I'm pretty sure a 10-month-old would move his/her head.  And while breathing in more CO2 might be an issue...  IDK...  I am not certain at this age, they are at much more risk than an (non-drunk/drugged) adult would be...

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i miss you mamas, how is everyone doing?

 

do any of your babies (or have your kids when they were babes) slept on their bellies? naomi wants to roll over onto her belly all the time but she doesn't seem to know what to do with her head. like, she just keeps it in the bed face down and it scares me so i roll her over into the nook of my arm. 

 

A has always been a side sleeper (at a day old he flipped onto his side and went to sleep). We used to turn him onto his back but once he was rolling we just gave up. When he's really sick he sleeps on his tummy a lot. If I'm awake and have him beside me I let him sleep however he wishes. Once I want to pass out I coax him back onto his side or back. It sometimes lasts! 

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i gave up trying to roll her over and the past couple of nights i've woken up with a butt or foot in my face. so it begins.

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i gave up trying to roll her over and the past couple of nights i've woken up with a butt or foot in my face. so it begins.

 

Sometimes I think about transitioning her to her crib at night but it's things like this that make me hesitate. As annoying as it can be, I'm going to miss that tiny butt in my face or those little hands in my hair. How are our little babies almost 1 year old already?!

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Helloooo ladies!
Not too much to report here... Just same old stuff for the most part.
We had a pretty quiet New Years, with some early fireworks for the kids and then normal bedtime. DH and I stayed up till 12 and kissed each other goodnight.

We did get an anniversary date (with Freya) which was great. Ate lunch at our favorite place and walked and drove around a bit. It was nice.

Then a great year end company dinner (our family plus one other family) with kids... Challenging but fun and great food. There was a pretty big storm that night and it was neat to watch the lightning across the bay.

We've been doing a little more venturing out on drives that would have previously been filled with heart wrenching baby crying. But she's doing much better these days so I've been able to go along when DH and the boys do weekend hikes or if we feel like a spontaneous evening trip to town. Fun. smile.gif

Little miss is cruising along furniture and finally, today, took a few steps while holding my hands. She's always refused this in the past, firmly planting her feet when I try to coax her forward.

Gosh, we're fast approaching first birthdays! How exciting!! We've got several signs she uses here and the boys love it.

Shoot, well she's asleep so I need to take her in. I've spent the last few days immersed in finding out what my seasonal color palette is. So fun, but I need some new clothes now. orngtongue.gif And I just made a full rubbish bag of clothes from my closet that are not my season and will be passed on to a friend. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, think carefully before you google!! You may lose yourself to it for a few days and find out you've been wearing colors that really don't work well with your skin tone/eyes/hair. It's a big rabbit hole. Um, and if you totally get into it, post pics on Facebook and let the rest of us help you find your season! wink1.gif

Night, gals.
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Happy 2014! How did you spend your New Year's Eve?

What in the world is this crazy idea?  Stay up late for fun?  People go out?  HA.  My kids were excited and chatted about the magic of the last day of an old year and a new day of a new year.... i just went to sleep.


FTMs, how was last night different from last year's celebration (or lack thereof)? BTDT Mamas, how have the years shaped your traditions?

considering my husband and i are both total homebodies, we rarely have mixed this up.  we usually just chill and don't have any traditions.  have i mentioned i'm TERRIBLE at holidays as a rule?  birthdays, i nail those.  but holiday spirit etc, i'm a bah humbug.

Resolutions aside, is there anything you'd love to see happen (for yourself, your family, the world, whatever) in the coming year? What steps are needed to get to your happiest place?
MORE SLEEP..... AND THEN MORE SLEEP.  I'd love us to find a home for the next 5-7 years.  we've moved every 2 years (often less) since getting married in 2001, and now that we've got so many kids, I'm tired of it.  I want my son in little league, and to have friends who will be w/ me and my kids for years, and to be able to have a garden and a social schedule, not have to make new friends all over every time we shift.  

How are you - mentally, emotionally, physically? How are your relationships? How's your BABY? orngbiggrin.gif

 

tired.  overwhelmed.  hormonal.  exhausted.  we had our first big fight in a couple of years and it was a doozy.  but we're really good now that we got so much of that out.  it was a brutal year, 2013.  really hard for us.  2014 is already crazy.  husband is going on the road in 1 week for 2 weeks.  then i'm going on a vacation w/ my sisters in FL w/ only 12 month old dude.  and then we have a wedding he's performing and i'm matron of honor in at the beginning of March.  and then we have to move from our house by the end of May, in the middle of our 10 day prayer event we do biannually.  then we have a new little one coming in August.  so things are kinda intense.....

my baby is the best.  he is the cutest, sweetest, most adorable little lumpkin EVER.  i'm so in love

.

 

 

He's standing, but not quite up to walking, chattering, waking only 2x most nights (he's out of the bed for a while b/c he was really rough on me), and goes down for naps in his pack-n-play and for bedtime w/ no fussing b/c he likes his down time.  can i say he's AMAZING.  he looks a lot like my hubby right now too.  love my brown-eyed boy.

 

I'm glad there's not a quit now button b/c i think i'd probably have pushed it by now.  and i know it's a lot, but it's gonna work out.  but man!!!!

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Shoot, well she's asleep so I need to take her in. I've spent the last few days immersed in finding out what my seasonal color palette is. So fun, but I need some new clothes now. orngtongue.gif And I just made a full rubbish bag of clothes from my closet that are not my season and will be passed on to a friend. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, think carefully before you google!! You may lose yourself to it for a few days and find out you've been wearing colors that really don't work well with your skin tone/eyes/hair. It's a big rabbit hole. Um, and if you totally get into it, post pics on Facebook and let the rest of us help you find your season! wink1.gif

Night, gals.

hehe-loved this.

 

i'm an fall/autumn, warm autumn if you know that level.  and it's good to know b/c i have a very limited palette.  what are you!!! hang on-facebook follow-up!!!!

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I'm glad there's not a quit now button b/c i think i'd probably have pushed it by now.

 

Yes! Here too!

 

Do I even know how to use a computer anymore? What is this?

 

Okay, I'm not sure how long I have, so GO:

 

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Happy 2014! How did you spend your New Year's Eve? FTMs, how was last night different from last year's celebration (or lack thereof)? BTDT Mamas, how have the years shaped your traditions?
Does it still count if I'm two weeks late? We did nothing, but we usually do nothing. It was sweet. I think. I don't remember.

Resolutions aside, is there anything you'd love to see happen (for yourself, your family, the world, whatever) in the coming year? What steps are needed to get to your happiest place?
I selfishly asked this. This is huge for me. It may take more deliberation. But: I really want to hammer out a solid WAHM career, and whittle back my hours at work until they're nil. And I want to continue to foster these local mama relationships I've been harvesting. And spend a little more time on MDC, and less time on FB. And continue to tackle organization projects in our home until everything is smooth and easy. And I want to start really cooking again - not the tossed-together stuff I've done lately - but actually opening some cookbooks and planning meals for the week so that takeout isn't such a temptation. I want to continue to nurture my yoga practice so that I can pop into a soothed state anywhere, anytime I can.
My husband may be changing career paths - my dad is starting a brewery/maltery, and he's asked my guy to run the maltery for him. So, that might be happening quite soon. That'd mean more money for him, exciting/challenging/satisfying work, and a cool new boss. ;) I'm sure if I'm interested I could hop on board, too - though I'm resistant to making myself available, as I don't want to jeopardize my life with Olive. But I'm excited for what this means for my dad and my man!

How are you - mentally, emotionally, physically? How are your relationships? How's your BABY? orngbiggrin.gif
Uuuhhhnmmmm -- !! Been rocky lately - really good, and also really low. Some things have been emerging (like mama friendships, new and old, which is *wonderful*) and other things have been grinding away at me more than ever (like my relationship with my employer - I think she's been ticked at me lately but I can't get her to talk about it!) and ... my husband and I have been both deliriously happy together and in awe of our kid, and then screaming at each other. My whole thing is to foster a safe, loving environment for Olive - obviously that isn't happening if her parents are yelling. I hate it. It takes a LOT of him yelling at me until I break down and yell back, but I just want to walk away, take her with me - I can't. Just can't. I know I've been a bad wife (read: unavailable, emotionally and physically) lately but it's just not okay to take it out on her! (EDIT: We've made the plan to go out for weekly coffee dates to reconnect - but it hasn't worked out yet. I know this needs to happen. I'm going to plan it tomorrow.)
But. She's amazing. She's just absolutely incredible. Aside from this past 36 hour spell of canines erupting and who-knows-what-else going on (weird sleep, clumsiness, neediness) we've been so happy, and so in-tune with each other. At work, I wear her for most of the day, and people love to tell me what's going on with her face while she's on my back - and I always stop myself from saying, "Yeah, I know. Dude. Thanks." She's just such a fun, crazy, happy, clever, loving kid! I can't believe she's almost a year old - while at the same time, I can't believe she's only almost a year old. She seems way older. I just feel so lucky all the time.
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Just...


I have a moment, because:



Anyway, MIL's here and we just ventured out to Costco (which is a new thing for me - I'm at once fascinated and revolted, and trying to figure out how it'll work for my vegan/hippie/eco tendencies) but my husband is barely speaking to me because apparently I've been "controlling." I'm sorry, I hadn't realized that offering an alternate route out of a crowded parking lot was being controlling? Just trying to help? Wasn't aware he'd thought of it? I just don't even know, ladies - we've fought most days lately. Sometimes I think it's getting better, but I'm definitely growing weary. I'm not a fighter, man.

Anyway. I'm in the chilly car in the frigid parking lot with a sweet sleeping baby while they shop. I can't wait til she wakes because we *finally got a babywearing coat* and listen - listen - listen! - I've never felt warm in the winter before. Ever. This thing is insulated, and it fits, and I'm bowled over and in love. So I can't wait to put it on again.

I'm SO craving mama time - either by myself or with another mama. Whatever. I just need to be NOT with my dear husband for an hour. I need to think/write/talk about everything and nothing. Mamas, where are you? Come chat with me!

I love you all; you inspire me. Thank you for sharing your sweet videos and funny/relevant articles on FB. I am grateful for you in my life. <3
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dude mama!!!  i wish we lived closer!  just did the costco run w/ my MIL on friday.

 

and my husband is in California (i'm in Massachusetts) for 2 weeks.  we're one week in.  so we're not fighting.  yay, i think.  but we've been fighting a lot lately too.  it's been nice b/c his absence forced me to hang w/ some other mama friends, some of whom didn't encourage me to love him more, but others who really helped me feel more sane and understand what i am struggling w/.

 

i am really hurting to be just trusted by him- to have him filter my interactions and reaching out through the 'i love and respect you and want to hear you' filter which seems to be broken by the 'i'm tired and you're demanding and always want more from me' filter that seems to be on EVERY INTERACTION WE HAVE.

 

yes, i'm tired, he's tired, and i do need more support.  this is a HARD age.  my 11 month old has stopped sleeping, today is deciding that naps are overrated, and i'm exhausted.

 

chatting up my beloved sister-in-law a LOT the last few weeks.  my best friend is my husband's little sister- it's nice b/c she loves him, she stayed w/ me after the birth of my 4th and while not a parent is very empathetic, and yet as a friend she's good at calling out what's really bugging me and helping support me.

 

love you mama!!!!

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Hey Mamas! I'm here too. Lurking around as I do when I get a free moment. Hugs HouseofPeace and sgsnyder. My hubby and I are working to create balance too. He's gone on a work trip AGAIN. I fully understand and appreciate his work and I'm very excited about his projects as if I were somehow mentally on these trips with him. But... I go from him being home and trying to be super-dad to weeks where I'm flying solo with him in another time zone and I'm alone alone alone. It's so hard to swing back and forth between being supported and not supported. I feel like I often demand too much when he first gets home and then I feel guilty so I cater to him and encourage him to take long bike rides and "me time." And then I feel dumb because that's not really what I wanted to convey. I empathise so much for his position that I forget me completely until I all of a sudden have a hormonal moment and say something totally off-handed. It's so hard to find normal for us right now. I think we'll get there but right now it's each day at a time. 

post #20 of 35

there you all are! i keep checking this and sad face when there aren't any baby/mama updates. 

naomi is walking like she's been doing it her whole life. 

hubby moved her crib into our room, snuggled evenly against our bed. right now she just loves jumping on the bed and hanging out in that space with her "bah!" (ball) and "beh!" (bear)

i cried seeing her crib in here. i want so desperately to never have her sleep at night without me, she is so big. so big. it makes me so sad, but happy and i cannot even describe the feelings that come with that growth. 

you know. you know.

 

i'm sorry you're fighting. that's not a good feeling. hubby read the article that jenny posted on fb yesterday. he comes upstairs, snuggles up against me and sleeping baby and says "is that how your day is? is that how you feel?" and i said "yes. in every way, yes."

i asked him if that article helped, he said so much. 

thank you jenny.

 

i just wanted to say hello and send some love.

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