friederike, that is amazing. congrats on the heartbeat. that is such an incredible feeling.
B&c good luck on your screening ! i hope your results are good.
re: womanly art of breastfeeding & breastfeeding on demand. i didnt read that book until after my babies were born. i have been really hard on myself for spending so much time reading about birth and not enough time preparing for breastfeeding (i took one class and like, skimmed a couple books.) if breastfeeding is important to you but you've never done it before, there's a chance the first couple weeks of your baby's life are going to be bewildering and potentially really challenging. some of those books make breastfeeding sound like a perfectly simple natural thing until you get mastitis or something, which - don't get me wrong, it is totally natural and perfect, but it was hardly simple for me. the first 8 weeks were non-stop craziness. first you dont have enough milk (colustrum) then your milk comes in and it seems like you have too much. the baby is trying to figure things out and sometimes doesnt nurse very effectively. some of them have a terrible latch and you have to teach them out to do it. you sleep in puddles of breastmilk. your nipples hurt all the time. it's just so bizarre.
you spend the first 6 weeks establishing your supply. this is a critical time because later, if you get sick or your baby gets sick or you go back to work or really, anything, your supply can get totally jacked up, but you can usually get back to the level you are at when you were 6 weeks postpartum. anyway, this rambling comment is to say that you wont have a baby attached to your boob forever, but feeding on demand in the first six weeks (at least, but longer is great) can greatly help and simplify the rest of your breastfeeding relationship. i tried really hard to guide my babies into a "every 2-3 hours" schedule because we had a lot of family around and, honestly, people like my mom wanted to hold babies so bad it made me feel guilty for needing to nurse them more than that. I am still really bitter about that. It was the wrong thing. I should have nursed them all day and all night if that's what they wanted. It feels like forever, but it's a very short period of time in the big scheme of things. and they both switched over to a 2-3 hour schedule on their own, around 8 weeks.
my twins are five months old today and breastfeeding still blows my mind on a daily basis. i look at them and it's like, here are 30 lbs of human. i grew them with something that dribbles out of my boobs. wtf. being a human is crazy.