Another happy, smiley,
kind of date this weekend.
I got my aunt & uncle to babysit on Friday night. Wow! It was really something to be kid-free and "going out" on a Friday night!
We had thought about going out for dinner.....but we ended up staying at his house and he cooked for me
(What a great treat).
We are really having fun lately. We are starting to get more familiar with each other & are really relaxing & enjoying our time together. Being a single dad, he is totally cool when I have to leave early to get my little ones home, etc.
I like that I get excited about seeing him, that I plan my wardrobe hours in advance & still panic & change it at the last minute and that when we are together, it seems like we've spent just minutes (instead of hours) and I always leave wanting more.
I continue to learn more about myself as I date. I have felt more insecure as we have gotten closer, but I've looked at it & then moved through it. I've realized that I am doing things completely different this time & I'm getting some great results. When I start to feel insecure, I've reminded myself about the things I wrote in my dating profile & remind myself that I am a great woman & this guy will either get that & love that, or there will be someone else even better. I was also feeling scared about being hurt as I feel more vulernable. I realized that this is the first time I have not tried to "control" a relationship and that feeling vulernable is okay because the only way I'm going to have a truly wonderful relationship is by putting myself out there....honestly and openly. Yes, it's vulernable, but it also feels great.
We had some great talks about things on Friday & really seem to be on the same page about a lot of things. We'll see what happens next. I'm focusing on taking things just one day at a time & enjoying this new relationship magic while it's here!