Waiting for divorce judgement and this falls into my lap
Hi all,
I am a soon-to-be-divorced single mommy of an almost 3 year-old son.
Here is my "dating" (not really) story:
I had a great weekend!
My male buddy (I've known him for 6 years..he lives near the beach and recently re-taught me to ride a bike) had a party Saturday night.
I got a sitter for a few hours so that I could go.
At first I was nervous because I haven't been to a real party (with adults, no children) for about 6 years and I was worried that I would feel self-concious or lonely going stag.
Sure enough when I got there, there were 6 other people there besides my buddy and they were all couples.
I though "oh well" and started talking to one of the wives and we had so much fun!
Then more people showed up and I talked to another lady and on and on....
Before I knew it, it was almost midnight and time to go home and I wanted to stay.
There was quite a bit of liquor flowing but I had one beer and two bottles of water the whole night : )
It was fun...and I didn't feel lonely at all : )
But here's the dramatic part...my buddy walked me to my car since I had to park 2 blocks away and we hugged and gave each other the customary peck on the lips (like we always have the last 6 years). Then we chatted about something else for a minute or too and said goodbye again.
Well, he leaned down to give me another peck...so I thought.
Ladies, I don't how to put this.
My platonic friend of many years put his hands on both sides of my face and gave me the most passionate, tender kiss I think I've had in my entire life!
My ex certainly never kissed me that way...he hardly kissed me, I think because he was self-concious of his smoker's breath.
My first boyfriend and I had some great kisses but not like this one.
At one point, he moved his hands from my face and he put them behind my head in my hair. He kissed me like he couldn't get enough of me. It was so incredibly intense.
At first I was guarded and I could feel my hands in fists, one of them clenching my keys. But his hands were so gentle on my face and I found myself giving into curiousity. A few minutes later, I dropped my keys on the ground and I was just as into him as he was into me.
When the kiss stopped, I asked him,
"...have you been drinking?"
And he said, "No. I've been so busy with everyone, I haven't even had time to eat much less have a drink. I've been wanting to do that for a looooong time. I realize this is a lot but I'd like to call you and talk about this tomorrow."
So I got in my car and said, " Uh...well...Good Night!" and I waved and drove away.
Sure to his word, he called me last night and wanted to know if we could see more of each other and see where it leads.
He said that he's always been attracted to me...to our friendship, our intellectual connection, our emotional connection...and he's always wondered if we would click in a romantic way too.
Now this is all weird for me...first of all, because he is my friend, my buddy...he rubbed my belly while I was pregnant for goodness sake! He has been my friend through my whole marriage and he knows all of my drama (like gritty details that you'd tell a girlfriend) and has been a good support the last 9 months of my separation.
I don't know...that kiss was AMAZING. I mean incredible.
But damn...I don't want to get into something on a rebound after such intense hurts from my ex.
But my friend is a great guy...educated, stable career, respectful, handsome, friendly, 41 yrs old (I'm 31) and wanting marriage and a family.
Someone talk some sense into me...I get kissed after a year of celibacy and brain goes to mush : )
We're going out to dinner (including my son) tomorrow night.
: cause I have no prospects and really am not even looking anymore. Just gave up on it for awhile.
Actually, I just watched this episode of a new TV series (at least new to Holland), Miss Match, and the same thing just happened. Sent my heart a flutterin'! Man, I want that!!! 
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