Anyone else feel lonely because of your food choices??
Up until about 8-10 years ago, I was totally and blissfully ignorantly eating the sad diet... when ttc took awhile, I started researching things (i've always been a good researcher) ...and stumbled upon all sorts of nutrition information... and began my journey to where I consider a healthy diet one that focuses on lots of plant foods, whole grains, and pastured/grass fed meats... you get the idea.
We spend a lot of the weekend at my parents with my siblings... we do sunday dinner together and my mom makes pizza (from scratch, but using white flour, etc.) every saturday.
When its just me, my kids and mom... i'm fine. Throw in my sister, and its still ok... but put my whole family together...and I feel lonely. It's weird and sad... but I do. (Except for my dad -- they all have some sort of enlightment about what they SHOULD eat, but no one really does...except me. Not even my kids...cause how can I bring them over there and say NO...you can't have that. I once told one of the kids that something that grandma served was not healthy (it wasn't!!), and she got upset with me! And really...how can I expect kids to understand that the chicken at home is better than the chicken at grandmas? (They asked me why I don't eat the chicken grandma makes... I will NOT support factory farming at all -- even by the act of mom planning to feed one more)
Like...last sunday. We were celebrating my moms birthday (and I get that it was NOT ABOUT ME)... but birthday person decides the menu...except mom, who doesn't want to meal plan. She gives direction (chicken, chocolate mousse) and then we run with it. My brother and sister called each other to talk menu... they didnt even include me in the discussion.. because, yanno...anything I suggest would be hippie food and therefore inedible for anyone but me... They didn't even share the full menu with me til the last possible second (I brought stuff for a salad...which I made...and was the only one to eat... and it was pretty much the only thing i ate). I'm being super strict about my diet because i've been feeling REALLY off, but when I said I was going to cheat and have some dessert, i got a standing ovation and a "good for you! Proud of ya" UMMMM.... what??????
Sigh.... i guess its like the saying goes...misery loves company...and im looking for some company... haha ;)