I know all of the reasons why I WANT a natural labor for my third baby. Its all the same reason that I chose natural for my first two babies.
My labors are shorter than most, but insanely intense... I don't feel like I can do it again. This is how i felt during my second pregnancy, as my first labor was EXTREMELY hard, and I hit a major brick wall during transition, but I just took my second labor as it came and made it through without intervention. It was however equally difficult in different ways and the recovery was traumatic and i had a PP hemorrhage and passed out from blood loss. Eck. not fun to think about.
And, that delivery was only 10 months ago! I (the most fertile human being on the face of the earth my DP jokes) conceived very fast, and I don't feel i have had adequate time to heal from my labor both physically and emotionally/spiritually. I am having so much anxiety about facing another labor. I find myself considering an epidural... but deep down its not what i want. I am just scared, and a little worried my body won;t handle it well since i haven't healed.
But its not something i can stop! the baby is coming and i cant change that. theres only one way out. which is why i'm freaking out. meh.