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post #61 of 234

rosie that is so tough! the spotting is worrying but there's nothing you can do right now. i took progesterone suppositories in a previous pregnancy and they didn't cause any spotting for me, in fact they stopped it. that makes me think that the bleeding may NOT be uterine but instead cervical. otherwise the progesterone would stop it. so could be just the suppository irritation as was mentioned. have you had intercourse that may have triggered the spotting? hope all turns out well for you. the only thing to check would be betas a couple times this week. sending you love.

post #62 of 234
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Originally Posted by mamacatsbaby View Post

I get that. I talk to quite a few women who have had RPL/RMC, a few who are carrying a healthy pregnancy now or who had their rainbows already and many of them had spotting, bleeding, etc. during their rainbow baby pregnancy. They had resigned themselves that it was the end and it just wasn't meant for them to lose those babies; their rainbows thrive. You feel whatever way you need to feel b/c yes, this sucks as well as blows, hard. But I'm not giving up that this pregnancy is over for you just yet hug2.gif . With the three pregnancies that ended in m/c were the betas strong?
What is RPL/RMC? 1st loss was chemical and 9+ years ago. Don't recall what betas were. I don't even know they were given to me. I just know the 2nd ones had decreased. 2nd loss was ectopic and they were slow rising. But I don't know what initial # was. Then out of nowhere they ramped up and by then I was having SEVERE pain. I know those got above 1,000, but I don't know any numbers. It seems like one draw in the ER was 650ish and I knew that was bad cause I had been at like 400-500 a few days prior. Last chemical, in October, I got BFP, had blood test the same day and it was only 9. Started bleeding the next day. I think I used progesterone with 1st chemical and last healthy pregnancy.

I do still have a tiny bit of hope as I wouldn't say I'm officially bleeding. Just that initial smearing this morning and all brown since then. Had betas Friday and am supposed to repeat Tuesday. Either way I'll call my dr tomorrow and see what they say. If they tell me to go ER I probably won't. I've done that enough times to know they can't do anything for me but tell me betas. And then send me a fat bill.
post #63 of 234
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Originally Posted by jesepumpkin View Post

rosie that is so tough! the spotting is worrying but there's nothing you can do right now. i took progesterone suppositories in a previous pregnancy and they didn't cause any spotting for me, in fact they stopped it. that makes me think that the bleeding may NOT be uterine but instead cervical. otherwise the progesterone would stop it. so could be just the suppository irritation as was mentioned. have you had intercourse that may have triggered the spotting? hope all turns out well for you. the only thing to check would be betas a couple times this week. sending you love.
No, I'm on pelvic rest. Can't even blame it on that...
post #64 of 234

Hi Rosie,

I had a similar experience this pregnancy -- not just spotting but bright red blood for about 3 days, and it came the evening of 11dpo, which was EXACTLY on time for my period. I was very freaked out, and confused - I was still getting BFPs starting on 10dpo. After 13dpo it just went away. It wasn't as strong as menstrual bleeding -- it was only when I wiped after peeing - but there was enough blood that I was SURE it couldn't just be spotting, but it was.

 

Who knows what will happen with this pregnancy (for all of us!) -- all we can do is hope for the best and take care of ourselves the best we can -- but just to give you a little peace of mind, this is apparently very common, and I have heard women say many, many times that all their pregnancies have been different and had different symptoms.

 

Hoping for the best for you!

post #65 of 234
Well, even though I've had a rainbow baby, tonight I join you in the PAL anxiety. greensad.gif I was really hoping to avoid that this time around. :/

I had pink cervical fluid, then a spot of red in the cervical fluid. My vagina was wet and open/soft feeling. (not cervix, vagina...I don't know if that description even makes sense...) After the red spot, it stopped. I'm in bed now. Hopefully it was just a fluke and there isn't any more. Ever. My period would have been here at least a week ago, so I think it's too late for implantation bleeding, and we haven't had sex. My muscles feel sore (although we did a lot of bike riding the other day) and I felt crampy and period-like today. I was hoping those symptoms were pregnancy related, but now I wonder if they're loss related. :|
I had already planned to take another pregnancy test in the morning, just because I'm a POAS-aholic. I don't know that the line would be any lighter already though, if I'm going to miscarry.
I feel stressed and tense, even though I know I shouldn't worry, and need to just let it be. Easier said than done, though!
post #66 of 234
How are you doing this morning rosie? RPL/RMC=recurrent pregnancy loss/recurrent miscarriage. It seems to me that with good looking betas thus far you are likely humming along just fine. Have you had anymore spotting/bleeding? Are you going to have more betas done?

ybutterfly I had some pale pink spotting 15DPO a few times and once, IIRC, at 16DPO. Had to talk myself down horrors.gif . I completely agree that hoping for the best and taking care of ourselves are the best things we can do.

lmevans I think you gotta take it as it comes ya know? So we acknowledge our worry, breathe it out, and try to continue to be in our right now with these pregnancies. How far along are you? Maybe the cramping is uterine growth? If you kind of overdid it a little the other day that may very well account for your soreness. Have you had anymore spotting?
post #67 of 234

Hello Mamas 

 

I'm 5 weeks p/g but terrified of having another m/c.

Last year I had a missed m/c which was detected at a 9 week ultrasound, with the baby having died just before 6 weeks.  I still get a chill when I remember that moment that the midwife was trying to look for the baby and I could from her face, even before she said anything, that something was wrong.

 

I have an ultrasound scheduled for next week, which will be at 6 weeks.  I'm terrified of the same thing happening.

 

I feel so numb and like my innocence has been taken away.    I'm jealous of women who cheerfully announce their p/g the moment the pee stick dries, blissfully unaware of what can happen.

post #68 of 234
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Originally Posted by jesepumpkin View Post

yay, so thrilled that my crew is here! honestly it makes this easier to go though right now as IRL i'm not sharing with most. 

oregonmoon, how are you feeling? its impossible not to worry at those milestones from the past. i hope you are feeling very pregnant! even a good sleep or a good breakfast can make you feel better one day over the next. just keep imagining that baby growing. 

I am now 5 weeks and go for my first beta tomorrow, then another monday so it'll be 4 days instead of 2 mostly due to my schedule. no previous history with trouble at this stage so all should be well. once i get past 7 weeks i'll be a wreck so i'm hoping for an u/s at that point. 

i am TRYING to be present and not think ahead too much, wishing it was april already. I hope to meditate more, starting tonight. 
i am also soooooo exhausted. grow baby grow!

mamacats i've been finding myself using the same terminology.  "yep, back on the horse'. 
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Originally Posted by bemyrainbowbaby View Post

yes I feel the same!! Its a lil difficult to not think ahead because of what we have been through. I am trying to focus on school ...that will keep some of this overwhelming excitement down.

Hi there. I'm well! Had a Dr appointment this morning, had a u/s and saw a heartbeat heartbeat.gif Such a relief since last pregnancy babe was small for dates and no cardiac activity. I'll have a more official dating u/s Thursday. Woohoo this one just might stick!
post #69 of 234
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Originally Posted by mamacatsbaby View Post

lmevans I think you gotta take it as it comes ya know? So we acknowledge our worry, breathe it out, and try to continue to be in our right now with these pregnancies. How far along are you? Maybe the cramping is uterine growth? If you kind of overdid it a little the other day that may very well account for your soreness. Have you had anymore spotting?

I'll be 5 weeks tomorrow. No more spotting. Hoping it was a fluke. Feeling nervous about telling others now, because I don't want to be like "ha, just kidding!" :/ Yet there are so many times when I want to say something. And I had wanted to tell when I first got my BFP.
post #70 of 234
Well, add another mc to my resume...greensad.gif levels dropped...
post #71 of 234

Oh no, Rosie, I'm so very sorry.

post #72 of 234

oh rosie, so sorry to hear it. bawling.gif sending you love and peace as you process. :candle  life sucks sometimes. 

 

i go for my betas tomorrow and thursday, ack!!! i want to know, but for now all is well so...maybe ignorance is bliss. i did do the 2nd clear blue digital with weeks and it went from 2-3 weeks up to 3+ weeks so i'm right on target. thanks for the heads up on that mama cats, i figured they weren't totally accurate but i wanted something to do at home anyways. 

oregonmoon you must have been so anxious going into the ultrasound! congrats on the beautiful heartbeat. i am working myself up for my u/s and it's not for 2 weeks. 

 

after my 1st m/c i thought for sure it wouldn't happen again, because fate wouldn't be so cruel. now after 2 i know that it not only is possible, it's likely. 

post #73 of 234

Rosie, I am really, really sorry. That is so unfair and sucky. I hope you'll recover quickly physically. I am going to be sending prayers and soothing thoughts your way.

post #74 of 234

rosie - so sorry to hear your news. I hope you get some time to process and grieve. I'll be sending good thoughts your way.

post #75 of 234
rosie: I'm so very sorry for your loss. Really, deeply sorry. That is awful news. Hugs hug2.gif
post #76 of 234

Rosie, I am so sorry to read this.  I'm sending you healing thoughts. :Hug

post #77 of 234
I'm so, so, so very sorry this happened again rosie candle.gif . I hope if there is an answer to be found for why the pregnancies aren't sticking that you are able to discover what it is and remedy the issue(s). Much love doll (((((hugs))))).
post #78 of 234

I am so sorry Rosie. Take care of yourself... :stillheart

post #79 of 234
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Originally Posted by Redmom View Post
 

Hello Mamas 

 

I'm 5 weeks p/g but terrified of having another m/c.

Last year I had a missed m/c which was detected at a 9 week ultrasound, with the baby having died just before 6 weeks.  I still get a chill when I remember that moment that the midwife was trying to look for the baby and I could from her face, even before she said anything, that something was wrong.

 

I have an ultrasound scheduled for next week, which will be at 6 weeks.  I'm terrified of the same thing happening.

 

I feel so numb and like my innocence has been taken away.    I'm jealous of women who cheerfully announce their p/g the moment the pee stick dries, blissfully unaware of what can happen.


Welcome Redmom. We are not the most cheery bunch on this thread, but we are here for you and all of us have gone through a loss so we understand. I am taking it a day at a time and going in for my 7.5 week US tomorrow to make sure all is looking okay. I didn't do any blood tests to check levels, but I did take the clear blue home tests and it was all normal.  I turn 38 on Friday which puts my risk factor up even higher if I want to think that way. But if I learned anything from my first successful pregnancy  and the years it has taken me to get pregnant it is that I cannot manifest a successful pregnancy no matter how much I wish for it. It is out of my control.  Surrender surrender surrender. That has been my lesson.

post #80 of 234
Yes, welcome Redmom! Definitely cosigning with seasiren on the surrender as ultimately that's all we can do. Take it bit by bit and keep breathing. Do your very best to enjoy every second of your pregnancy, even through the freakouts, 'cause those are inevitable wink1.gif .
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