I remember having a little bit of baby brain after my son was born 2 years ago, but now that I have a 4 week old and a 2 year old, I am having a really hard time remembering things. To start with the most disconcerting thing - I have flooded our laundry room twice now. DH is on the way to rent a fan to dry out the carpet the flood soaked again. I intend to "soak" something and leave the room, thinking I will come back to turn the tap off (and this is with DH watching the boys, so you would think my attention wouldn't be that divided). I also forget often where I put the mail/bills, if I've paid them, and if I've written checks properly. Not to mention forgetting where I put lists and what the heck was on them. Or what I intended to say or remember to do/look up. I try to finish sentences, even when we get interrupted by phone calls, a toddler request/meltdown, because I know that in 15 minutes, I will not remember, and before I know it, it will be a week later.
I feel pretty impaired and frustrated with myself. I am trying so hard and I feel like nothing is getting done. I know that in reality I am way more functional than after the birth of my son, but I obviously need to take it easy somehow, I just don't know when or how. I had hoped to use the next few months to prepare myself to start a small business (I would be the only employee and it would be so part-time), maybe when the littlest one is 9-12 months. I can't imagine planning dinner, let alone educating myself about business structures, taxes, billing, etc.
Does this get better? When does it stop? I feel like I'm getting OK sleep since I'm co-sleeping, but my mind does not seem to work like it did, even though I was sleep deprived before waking up with the 2 year old. ??? DH is helping a lot and I actually have a lot of support, so I guess I'm judging myself for complaining but I feel like I need some advice.