Not sure if some of you remember me from several months ago, when I posted about the issues we were having with homeschooling. Things were going better for a while, but recently we've been having problems again.
To be honest, I think that my recent health issues have been a big factor this time. I'll make that part short, since this is really about homeschooling, and trying to figure out whether to continue trying or to try a (private) Montessori school for a few months.
I was diagnosed with stage 0 breast cancer shortly before Christmas, which is by now upgraded to stage 1. I had surgery (lumpectomy) almost 2 weeks ago now. I am fully recovered, but am likely facing more surgery, and will also be starting treatments with a naturopathic oncologist in the next 1 or 2 weeks. Anyway, this has been very stressful for all of us, and I see that in my son's attitude and behavior. I am doing my very best to stay positive, but I am aware that there are times that I am less patient than I should be, because I'm stressing.
My son just turned 9 on Monday, and overall is doing ok with academics, at least the most important ones, math, grammar, reading and writing. The other subjects are somewhat on the back burner right now, but we do things as we have time and energy for science and social studies. He's doing amazing things with his cello playing, and his ability to play with musical expression is so far beyond his years these days that he often brings tears to my eyes when he plays!
And yet, he is so EXTREMELY distracted all day long, and takes forever to get started with anything, even just putting his clothes on in the morning. Even with his cello practice, it takes him forever to get started (he can easily take 10-15 minutes to just get his cello out, and then there's his bow too), and when he does start, he often gets distracted every few minutes, for 5 to 10 minutes at a time. If I just leave him alone, it can easily take him 3-4 hours to do 1.5 hours of practice. But here's the thing, he WANTS to practice. When I suggest that he be done, he won't hear of it, he wants to continue. So the problem is not that he's doing it because he "has to", he wants to, but he just can't stay focused. So then he asks me to work with him, which mostly means me sitting there, constantly getting his attention back on practicing, because in reality, his practice methods are really good, he rarely truly needs real help to practice. And that's just his cello practice, then there's his school work, which is even worse, because at least he wants to do his cello practice, but he has no desire to do math or grammar. At least he now has a kindle with a book he loves, so I don't have to worry about his reading for now.
But at this point, I feel completely drained and burned out, and feel like I need a break. But then I also feel guilty about the idea of having to send him to school to get that break. Initially my son didn't want to go to school at all, but the last couple of days, after I tried to explain why, and that it hopefully would only be temporary if he didn't want to go next year, he seems to be less resistant about it. Now he says he's hoping that they will help him be a better homeschooled kid for next school year, which actually pretty broke my heart when he said that. :(
Part of me feels like just taking a break from school altogether for a couple of months, and just relax and do some fun things together on the days that I don't have any treatments (which are only twice a week), but my husband won't hear of that, he said that's neglecting our son's education. I do understand his point, although this would only be for a few months, and then we can do some school during the summer, although I also get it that that would be harder now that our daughter is at school and will be home during the summer (she won't do any school for me, for sure!).
At least the school - a private Montessori school, very close to home - looks really good. We met with the teacher for more than an hour a few weeks ago and she is very nice and seems to have a good grasp of my son's needs already. And it would only be for the rest of this school year at the most, since my husband has made it very clear he won't pay for private school beyond that.
But I can't decide what would be best, both for my little guy and for myself. Any thoughts? Sorry this got so long.