I'm always afraid one of the kids is going to die. Maybe not soon, but sometime before me. I only wanted 2 kids, but sometimes I wonder if we should have 3 just in case. I know you can't replace a lost child, but I just feel I am supposed to have 2 kids and at least that would allow me to have my 2.
Also, I know this probably doesn't mean anything, but this woman did that ring on a string test to try and find out the gender, and she said "You're going to have 2 boys and then no more kids after that." But since this isn't twins, I was thinking, oh no, that means this one is going to die and then we will have another.
Dh got really upset when I said something about one of the kids dying; he tends to be a bumbling moron about death. The plan was for him to get a vasectomy sometime after this one was born (he got upset when I said we should wait until the SIDS risk has passed) and now I'm thinking I'm not comfortable with the idea. I brought it up again, saying maybe he should bank sperm first, and he said he didn't want any more kids and that people who want another one shouldn't rely too much on the sperm bank.
I really don't want 3 kids, and I don't want to keep using birth control...I just want to know that everything is going to be all right with the 2 we have!