Mamas, come on, do you really think I could/would leave Zach for 5 days??? He would scream until he passed out, seriously. He has asthma and he just goes crazy when I *attempt* to let him cry a little bit. He just doesn't give in for anything, except the "bobby". And I really am ok with that!
Part of the reason I came into some clarity is because it was just me and my baby I had to look after. No Daddy, no Crystal Pistol, no Julianna Banana, no doggies (my Luna is pregnant!!!
), no plants to water, laundry to fold, diapers to dunk, meals to cook, etc., etc. I could focus on myself while Zach was sleeping- which allowed me to sit in the ocean with a cold beer, talking to my mom about everything and nothing. And when Zachary was awake we'd eat fresh Baja seafood, and take walks down the beach and pick up shells and he'd giggle when his naked butt would fall in the tide pools, and he'd run away from the big waves. The most precious thing I have ever seen in my ENTIRE life were his tiny little footprints in the sand... Oh, it just made me MELT!
Zaxmama, welcome back. My Zachary went through a hitting faze about a month or two ago. He still does it sometimes when I tell him "no" about something. I tried hitting him back, but then it turns into a slap fest and we end up laughing. So, now I hold his arm down so he can't move it and he gets so PISSED. He hates being restricted, so it seems to work for us. I tell him "Don't hit, it's not nice" and hold his arm. He's learning not to hit me, but he still hits his sisters, but I think that's perfectly normal...?
Casina, glad you're feeling good. I can only imagine the immense amount of patience it takes to do all that you do... What does your DH play in the band? Mine plays guitar, and drums sometimes. I sing. We're recording "Kid Fears" by the Indigo Girls on a borrowed 4-track right now. What a stress reliever music can be!
This Thursday I'm going to meet with other like-minded mamas, and I can not wait! We're starting a 'birth circle' where we can sit around and talk about our pregnancies, labors, and births, and also structure some support for pregnant and laboring mamas when the time comes. We can come in and watch their other children, cook meals, do housework, or go to the hospital and serve as doula, give massages, keep the room quiet, etc. I'm excited because nursing babies (and toddlers) are always welcome to the groups, so I can bring Zach without guilt. I'm going to an evening wedding this Friday. My friend of 11 years is getting married, and I'm leaving Zach here with my brother and sister in-law... I'm scared! But I don't feel guilty... I'm just going to enjoy myself and hope for the best.