thanks
thank you for your kind words.
It is so strange to live without her. She was more than a frined she was my sister, dearest friend since we were 14 yrs old. We called eachother Lucy and Ethel because we always were cooking up something wacky. Like when I wanted to ttc and dh did not, she joked that she would help me drug him and "obtain" the sperm...ha ha. She was hilarious. My dh says I act as though I lost my wife, He can never really understand that I have. Our relationship was so close, she knew everything about me, about him, about my relatives, about my life! we shared it all. Mika was my closest girlfriend in the world, my only close friend really. You know that one girlfriened that means the world to you, you can call at 2am? That was mika to me.I can barely cope without her, I have never been a grown up without her to discuss every little detail of our lives.We talked on the phone 10 times a day. While I did the laudry we chatted, as I sat in my kids lessons we chatted, My baby napped in the car so I chatted with her while I waited. I am so sad for her children. She wanted so much for them to be free from stress and be real children. She never bought brand name clothing or expensive tennis shoes, she did not want to raise materialistic kids. She did not let them listen to obscence music or read innapropraite material. she babied them, protected them. Now they will grow up without a mom and it will harden their hearts a bit. They have a loving granny but they do not have the woman that birthed them that nursed them and molded them. I am so sad right now. It has been 1 month and it has gotten worse. death is NOT natural, we are not meant to bear this pain, I know that for sure.And she was just 28! 28 years old, died on a Tuesday buried 7 days later.
I am also depressed that no one has reallly donatated to her kids fund. I thought I could make the site and floods of 5 dollar donations would pour in. But there has only been 3 donations. I post on a couple of boards. So I put the site on all of them. Thanks for you kind words. I miss my best friend. ~Elyice