I used to post a lot, but I find lately that I don't really have much to say. Like Rynna, I am due 6/30 so my edd is still a long way off compared to the rest of you. The more I read about everyone being ready to labor or showing signs, the more paranoid I get that I'll go early. I REALLY want my homebirth, I am terrified of birthing in a hospital. My mw assured me that baby was floating really high up, she said we all know that second babies tend to drop during labor rather than before, but that they still tend to be a little lower than mine is before labor starts. That was comforting. I am barely 35 wks today, my labor support doesn't arrive until June 24, and I am very scared of having a premature baby. So I think that I will probably not be hanging out here as much as I was before. I told dh I have to consciously stop myself from doing cervix opening visualizations-I am not doing hypnobabies, but I did do visualizations like that for Tain and I find myself doing them now when I am not paying attention. So I need to stop focusing on labor and birth for a while.
In other news, I am feeling tired more and I think I took my last bath with ds today. He is going to be upset about it, but I have too much trouble getting out of the tub. Baby has started hitting my cervix and bladder a lot-PIMPH is a private joke between dh and I now.
I can definitely commiserate with the shooting pains in my nether regions as well as the occasional pleasurable one, which is just confusing.
I told ds I was tired of him today. I guess I'd feel more guilty about it if I thought he understood, which I am sure he didn't since I didn't use a negative tone and he doesn't comprehend language very well, or if I wasn't so totally tired of him. Dh didn't care for it. Dh doesn't have a toddler accidentally pinching his painfully sensitive nipples all the time or climbing all over him or elbowing him in his immensely large tummy or leaning back on his belly so he can't breathe or throwing fits if he doesn't pick him up. He isn't the only one in the whole house that can possibly kiss an owie or cuddle at night or sit with when ds is grumpy. I am so tired of my son! Dh has been home for a week straight (he's laid off for 2 weeks) and I still do the brunt of the parenting, mostly b/c ds won't allow dh to do anything. I am frustrated, mostly b/c not only did I count on this as a reprieve, which it isn't that much, but also b/c it is painfully clear that I am going to have major issues mothering a mama magnet and a newborn.
My house is a mess, I really don't care at all. I have a bunch of projects to do that I haven't started yet and I don't care. oh, Smithie, would you be able to find someone to make the extensions for you if I sent all the stuff? In my present state, I feel like I am not going to get them done before James gets here and I hate to think about you waiting on them. If there is no hurry, I'm more than happy to do them, I just don't want the pressure of needing to do them NOW, kwim?
My reflux is so bad, but I knew that would happen. I try not to think about it since it is pretty much a constant thing.
I am starting to sleep in increments instead of all at night. It is good when I can do it i.e. ds decides napping is okay, but it is miserable when I am tired (like now) and he refuses to be. I think of it as my body training me again for having a newborn around.
Video games...I feel like the only wife/mother on MDC who doesn't mind them. Dh plays them at night after ds and I go to bed. His usual job was a semi-night shift so he got home late anyway and it helps him de-stress. Sometimes he'll play during the day when we are all just lazing around. It has never been an issue in our marriage or our parenting and it doesn't make him a more violent person or anything. For him, it is a great tool, the way I imagine sewing is for me. If I need him and he is playing, he'll immediately pause it and come back to it later. He'll stop playing if I want to spend time with him. It is all about how you use or abuse them, not the games themselves, IMO.
Well, I got colostrum in, though Adventures in Tandem Nursing (AITN) says it is actually pre-colostrum. At any rate, it doesn't hurt quite so much to nurse ds, but he asks more. He has started asking in the middle of the night again. It is hard to refuse, but I REALLY don't want to be tandem night nursing. Ideally, I'd like to stick with the down to nap, down to bedtime nursing we have now, but I know my ds and once he realizes my milk is back, he'll want to nurse every minute of the day. Don't know how I am going to handle that, I guess we'll have to see how it goes. Hey Rynna, strange question but have you tasted the colostrum you have now? I've only ever tasted mature milk, the really sweet stuff, but the stuff I have now is salty. AITN says that our bodies make "weaning milk" that is really salty and I guess I am trying to figure out if what I have is weaning milk or colostrum b/c it isn't really yellowish like I remember colostrum being. FYI, it also says that the placenta detaching from your uterus releases a signal for your body to stop making so much progesterone which in turn signals your breasts to start making colostrum. So I no longer have to feel like a freak for not having milk/leaking before Tain was born. Get this, it also says that milk drying up is actually caused by elevated progesterone levels during pregnancy, not lower prolactin levels. That is why most remedies like teas don't work b/c they are designed to raise prolactin levels and that isn't the problem. Evidently the progesterone levels are so high they basically cancel out anything you try to do with prolactin. And of course, lowering progesterone levels during pregnancy is not a good idea. This is totally off subject, but I find it fascinating the way our bodies work, how intricate the system is, and how determined it is to function in a certain way.
AITN also mentioned that our mothering hormones at the end of pregnancy/during the babymoon focus on the newborn to the extent that we start to feel less attached/more irritated with our older children. She is always careful to preface these comments with "everyone's experience is different and some may experience the opposite, but this is the general trend..." (paraphrased). I find this to be really helpful lately in finding patience for ds and it helps to know that it won't always be this way, that a little down the road it will even out again. So those of you who are also struggling with your current dc, hopefully that helps a little.
Well, I think I have written a long enough post to get me through another few days, LOL. Good birthing vibes to everyone reading to go...
In other news, I am feeling tired more and I think I took my last bath with ds today. He is going to be upset about it, but I have too much trouble getting out of the tub. Baby has started hitting my cervix and bladder a lot-PIMPH is a private joke between dh and I now.
I can definitely commiserate with the shooting pains in my nether regions as well as the occasional pleasurable one, which is just confusing.I told ds I was tired of him today. I guess I'd feel more guilty about it if I thought he understood, which I am sure he didn't since I didn't use a negative tone and he doesn't comprehend language very well, or if I wasn't so totally tired of him. Dh didn't care for it. Dh doesn't have a toddler accidentally pinching his painfully sensitive nipples all the time or climbing all over him or elbowing him in his immensely large tummy or leaning back on his belly so he can't breathe or throwing fits if he doesn't pick him up. He isn't the only one in the whole house that can possibly kiss an owie or cuddle at night or sit with when ds is grumpy. I am so tired of my son! Dh has been home for a week straight (he's laid off for 2 weeks) and I still do the brunt of the parenting, mostly b/c ds won't allow dh to do anything. I am frustrated, mostly b/c not only did I count on this as a reprieve, which it isn't that much, but also b/c it is painfully clear that I am going to have major issues mothering a mama magnet and a newborn.
My house is a mess, I really don't care at all. I have a bunch of projects to do that I haven't started yet and I don't care. oh, Smithie, would you be able to find someone to make the extensions for you if I sent all the stuff? In my present state, I feel like I am not going to get them done before James gets here and I hate to think about you waiting on them. If there is no hurry, I'm more than happy to do them, I just don't want the pressure of needing to do them NOW, kwim?
My reflux is so bad, but I knew that would happen. I try not to think about it since it is pretty much a constant thing.
I am starting to sleep in increments instead of all at night. It is good when I can do it i.e. ds decides napping is okay, but it is miserable when I am tired (like now) and he refuses to be. I think of it as my body training me again for having a newborn around.
Video games...I feel like the only wife/mother on MDC who doesn't mind them. Dh plays them at night after ds and I go to bed. His usual job was a semi-night shift so he got home late anyway and it helps him de-stress. Sometimes he'll play during the day when we are all just lazing around. It has never been an issue in our marriage or our parenting and it doesn't make him a more violent person or anything. For him, it is a great tool, the way I imagine sewing is for me. If I need him and he is playing, he'll immediately pause it and come back to it later. He'll stop playing if I want to spend time with him. It is all about how you use or abuse them, not the games themselves, IMO.
Well, I got colostrum in, though Adventures in Tandem Nursing (AITN) says it is actually pre-colostrum. At any rate, it doesn't hurt quite so much to nurse ds, but he asks more. He has started asking in the middle of the night again. It is hard to refuse, but I REALLY don't want to be tandem night nursing. Ideally, I'd like to stick with the down to nap, down to bedtime nursing we have now, but I know my ds and once he realizes my milk is back, he'll want to nurse every minute of the day. Don't know how I am going to handle that, I guess we'll have to see how it goes. Hey Rynna, strange question but have you tasted the colostrum you have now? I've only ever tasted mature milk, the really sweet stuff, but the stuff I have now is salty. AITN says that our bodies make "weaning milk" that is really salty and I guess I am trying to figure out if what I have is weaning milk or colostrum b/c it isn't really yellowish like I remember colostrum being. FYI, it also says that the placenta detaching from your uterus releases a signal for your body to stop making so much progesterone which in turn signals your breasts to start making colostrum. So I no longer have to feel like a freak for not having milk/leaking before Tain was born. Get this, it also says that milk drying up is actually caused by elevated progesterone levels during pregnancy, not lower prolactin levels. That is why most remedies like teas don't work b/c they are designed to raise prolactin levels and that isn't the problem. Evidently the progesterone levels are so high they basically cancel out anything you try to do with prolactin. And of course, lowering progesterone levels during pregnancy is not a good idea. This is totally off subject, but I find it fascinating the way our bodies work, how intricate the system is, and how determined it is to function in a certain way.
AITN also mentioned that our mothering hormones at the end of pregnancy/during the babymoon focus on the newborn to the extent that we start to feel less attached/more irritated with our older children. She is always careful to preface these comments with "everyone's experience is different and some may experience the opposite, but this is the general trend..." (paraphrased). I find this to be really helpful lately in finding patience for ds and it helps to know that it won't always be this way, that a little down the road it will even out again. So those of you who are also struggling with your current dc, hopefully that helps a little.
Well, I think I have written a long enough post to get me through another few days, LOL. Good birthing vibes to everyone reading to go...
He has computer games that he used to play occasionally, but since our computer is temperamental and the soundcard driver doesn't work at all a lot of those are unplayable. I liked them a lot better, though, because he could hit pause at any time. You can't pause Gemstone. 
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. It's definately not sweet like real milk, or super-creamy like early milk. It's really quite watery. Eli's happy with it, I think because he's still getting Mamma and it's more than was there before, but when the real milk comes back, I'm sure he'll want to nurse all the time. I'm kind of hoping he'll get chubby for a little while on real, fatty, newborn milk. I saw him on camera over the weekend and for the first time, I think I saw him the way others see him-- he really looked malnourished. 
Apparently, the camera only adds 10 pounds if you're an adult. 
They got me sitting on a beach, and I look like a beached whale. :LOL Anyway, I've heard that kids sometimes gain a lot of weight when the milk comes back in.. maybe for the first time in his life, Eli will have little chubby thighs, or arms that don't look like pencils, or maybe, just maybe, his ribs won't flare out over his belly anymore.
to everyone feeling rotten! I'm going to see an osteopath tomorrow because my yoga teacher said he could help with the aches and pains (particularly the pubic symphasis), I'll let you know how it goes.
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