Yay Lucysmama!! That is so wonderful that you heard the heart beat today. Congratulations!
And how great is it that your midwife seems to be willing to work with you to do some healing around your trust of women. It sounds like you are going to have a fantastic birth experience.
And how great is it that your midwife seems to be willing to work with you to do some healing around your trust of women. It sounds like you are going to have a fantastic birth experience.
(((((Amy)))))) 
No baby dreams yet. I'm having a really hard time connecting with two. I have no idea who's who. I think dh and I have at least decided on first names. Definately Liam and I like Mason(but dh is undecided). Kieran started calling my tummy Liam so I think that one stays. I also like those names because then they share mine and Dh's initials. Now we just have to come up with middle names 
I think now that they at least have names maybe the bonding will be easier.
Keep talking to that babe and encouraging him/her to keep cooking.
: I told my mw that things just don't feel right in my uterine/cervix area (not bad necessarily, but just not the same as before) so she said to do the bare minimum til my appt tomorrow. She'll check my cervix again, and if nothing has changed, we won't be as concerned. G-d forbid it has, I don't know what we do from there.
Her other DIL is coming out the end of the week bc they are being transferred nearby to MIL very soon, so they are house hunting...apparently they are incapable of renting a car and being at the house on their own???? Whatever. I know where we stand now. She is going to come back in a week when DH has to get underway for a few days, then my mom is coming for his next trip. Mind you, my mom is also rearranging her whole store's schedule this week to come up here tomorrow evening and stay til Thursday. And she'll do it over and over again if she has to. I'm sorry it's such a hassle to MIL that I am having pg problems, and I might interrupt her home life a little. She thought our 14 year old babysitter, who has sat for us once and whose mom made it clear she did not want her working all the time, should come and help out everyday for hours on end, and maybe even come stay over and stuff.
So we should pay someone what a family member could/should do for free. I just don't get it. She does everything for the other 2 kids who are apparently helpless (we all have spouses and families) and apparently keep track of everything she does for everyone else (like she bought DH a gift yesterday, and was like don't tell the others) and get jealous or something. Whatever. I know who won't be invited to come the second the baby is born. I think I'll let my parents come up when labor begins, and his can come after. Ok done being pissy. Just had to vent this somewhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
