Ongoing Midwife Saga
So my ongoing midwife saga continues!

I need some support!
I posted this on the main thread earlier, but I'll do a quick recap. About two months ago my midwife, whom I loved, contracted meningitis and became very ill. She was hospitalized and went into a coma. Luckily she came out of the coma, but was on life support for a long time. They discovered she also has Lupus. Long story short, she is going to live but has a long and pretty horrible recovery process with some brain damage.
I had already paid her a substantial amount of her fee - basically pre-paid. The family had spent the money and couldn't refund it to me, so her ex-partner said she would take over our care even though she wasn't practicing anymore.
I knew from the first meeting with her that something wasn't right, and the next appointment I had with her was even worse! She seemed extremely nervous, and I wasn't comfortable with her answers to some of my questions. Last night I came home to a message from her asking me to urgently call her. I called, and she backed out of being my midwife.

She didn't even give me a reason.
She gave me two phone numbers of different midwifes I can contact, so I'm starting down that road. I am SO frustrated because I feel like I'm starting over at all of this when I thought it was all taken care of, and I'm at 29 weeks. You just shouldn't have to go back to the drawing board at 29 weeks! Now I have to try and come up with the list of all of my questions to ask... I didn't write anything down from the first time I interviewed Noelle. I am also limited because of the financial aspects of the situation and feel somewhat trapped.
I know that my birth will be beautiful and perfect no matter who is there (or not there - I've begun to lean towards UC for the actual birth) but I would really like all of this resolved.
Please send positive energy my way! And TIA for listening.

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