Aww, I'm so behind!
Maya, I'm SO glad to hear that the spotting is gone! Stick, baby!!!
I just found out that my IRL friend is pregnant (we obsessed about it together, o' course!). I'm really happy for her! DH said "You're next" when he heard the news about her, but I shared no bit of his optimism and I was also worried that I'll be letting him down when I'm not pregnant.
I have been really questioning the whole TTC issue lately. I waver between feeling hopeless to feeling relaxed (not optimistic, but "surrendering," ha, ha). When I had spotting this past year while not TTC, it was simply annoying, not day after day of agony. When DH and I argue or when DD is a handful, I wonder if I should try at all for another baby. And then I feel guilty, wondering how I could NOT want a baby? When I see other babies or PG women, I honestly don't have a bit of baby lust . . .it makes me very confused.
So, last night I kept thinking that if I just decided to stop trying, I wonder how free I would feel? I wouldn't have to worry about getting DH to GIO at the right time, I wouldn't have to feel depressed for 11 days while I see blood, I wouldn't have to worry how I'd handle another child, I wouldn't have to sit around feeling like there is just something wrong with me, I would go back to work earlier (which means more money, which means a HOUSE) . . My wish of TTC becoming a non-issue could come true if I would change my attitude, and ultimately, my goal. . . after all, how I can I set a goal that I don't really have control over?
UGH. And hey, even though I'm not excited about TTC myself right now, a few BFPs would really cheer me up . . .c'MON, ladies!!!!!
Hugs to all!
ETA: Lesley, thanks for stalking my chart! Makes me feel special!