happay and oceanbaby~~thinking of you !
I'm trying not to gte really upset with my mom (well actually, I am really upset with her, but am trying to calm down a bit). She's a special education consultant in a school cooperative that starts school Aug 9. She's now hedging about coming out b/c she "really wants to start the school year on time."
I can't describe how hurt I am. Granted, I am waaaay hormonal right now, but it seems like something or someone else has come first my whole life. (My mom could easily be classified as a workaholic). But, come on, how could she even consider not coming out for her 2nd grandchild's newborn days?! We've got no other family who would be suitable help, so I'm feeling pretty hurt right now, though we are so fortunate to have a close group of AP families who will help us out. I'm hoping I misread or misinterepreted her e-mail, but right now I am so hurt I feel like saying, "Fine, please don't bother coming out, we'd rather the $$ spent on a plane ticket be given to help towards take out meals and a housecleaner." She's saying she may come out for a week in late October.
She once advised me to take ds to his childcare when he was sick, b/c I shouldn't miss the day of work and he was miserable anyway, it wouldn't matter if he was miserable with someone else. (I didn't do it!) It made me really sorry for myself to know that's how she parented.
Plus, ds has been ultra demanding and mean to me (lots of hitting, etc) and I'm out of the energy I need to figure out what he needs, though I know he's nervous about the upcoming birth and acting all that out.
Okay I think I'm done with my hormonally inspired pity party. Though did I mention that our computer is kooky and I can't laod the software for the digital camera AND dh is just not "nesting" to my tastes.
ANd right before I go into labour, I feel a definate "stirring" of energies... like angels are appearing on the scene.
