I wish I had known that...
...a homebirth midwife, even one who is sweet and motherly and comes with high recommendations, can still make a crappy birth attendant.
...taking castor oil to augment labor would give me diahhrea and cramps from hell and would put me at risk for dehydration, and the baby at risk of distress.
...labor could take a longgggg time and therefore I should have rested while I had the chance.
...dilation checks are pointless and discouraging.
...to have my private parts touched and watched would be uncomfortable and inhibiting, and that this would hinder labor.
...if my instincts conflicted with the midwife's suggestions, I should follow my instincts.
...I didn't have to push (and shouldn't have) just because I was 10 cm. dilated.
...hold-your-breath-pop-your-eyes-out pushing is stupid and dangerous.
...depression and apathy after the birth are not normal.
...bonding is partly a chemical process dependant on close proximity for the time period that certain hormones are being released. (i.e., give me my baby NOW)
...birth is on the sexual spectrum, and that which gets the baby in gets the baby out.
...nobody at the hospital emergency room would know anything about breast infections, and would charge me $700 for the visit anyway.
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...a homebirth midwife, even one who is sweet and motherly and comes with high recommendations, can still make a crappy birth attendant.
...taking castor oil to augment labor would give me diahhrea and cramps from hell and would put me at risk for dehydration, and the baby at risk of distress.
...labor could take a longgggg time and therefore I should have rested while I had the chance.
...dilation checks are pointless and discouraging.
...to have my private parts touched and watched would be uncomfortable and inhibiting, and that this would hinder labor.
...if my instincts conflicted with the midwife's suggestions, I should follow my instincts.
...I didn't have to push (and shouldn't have) just because I was 10 cm. dilated.
...hold-your-breath-pop-your-eyes-out pushing is stupid and dangerous.
...depression and apathy after the birth are not normal.
...bonding is partly a chemical process dependant on close proximity for the time period that certain hormones are being released. (i.e., give me my baby NOW)
...birth is on the sexual spectrum, and that which gets the baby in gets the baby out.

...nobody at the hospital emergency room would know anything about breast infections, and would charge me $700 for the visit anyway.
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So, two weeks after pp bleeding stops I had some light bleeding. Although, I was looking forward to not having a period for awhile I hope that this was a light period and not implantation. I never did experience a lack of sex drive-I was horny again 2 weeks pp.
Granulation tissue basically is when your body overheals itself. It happened to me, where I tore. Your skin heals but then puts down another basal layer of skin on top of this. So, basically, it's your 'underskin' without the protective top layer so it feels a bit like road rash....bare nerves. It's somehat painful and it feels like there's something 'there'. That's the best I can do. It sucked, but it's gone now!
That's pretty bad that I experienced it and STILL didn't know it was a possibility!!
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I was freaking out... PROLAPSE!! I had NO tone left. It eventually went back to its original position, but I was really scared.
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