trying to cope

[logansmom528]

I am sitting here reading through some of the recent posts, and I am amazed that I feel so connected with some of you. I have the same thoughts and questions. On Saturday 7/17/04 my sons father passed away. Our relationship was not working out the way I would have liked it to, he had a very big battle with drugs. When I was prego I told him if he could not stop, we could not be a family. I tried, so many times, but I could not help him, or save him. And now he is gone. It was very recent, so I am really still in the "what if" stage. I suppose that never goes away, but I just wish I could go 10 min without crying! His funeral was today, and I am in unbelievable pain. I can't stop the crying. Now I am really a true single parent. What am I supposed to do? Sorry to unload, but i am lost! I just want to go lie on his grave site forever. I miss him so much, and he was hardly around in the past months. I guess I never realized how much I loved him, but now that he is gone...I suppose time heals, or helps all.

[ekblad9]

I don't know how you feel but wanted to offer you a I'm so sorry for your loss. I had that type of relationship with my alcoholic boyfriend and bio dad to my first child. He didn't die but I can understand your mixed feelings for him. I'm so sorry.

[L.J.]

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you can find a lot of support to help you through this transition.

[alaskan mom]

I am sorry for your loss.

I give you all the hope I can give, that someday you will find someone again to brighten your days! Take care, much love from Alaska!