Thank you all for the thoughts and hugs. Let me just say you ladies are about the only people I feel comfortable talking to and I'm so glad I have you!!
I really don't want to offend b/c I know this can be a touchy subject for some so here goes. Back in April one of my DH's friends called and was genuinely concerned for him b/c he had seen him smoking outside the firehouse. I confronted DH at that time and he said he'd only smoked a "few" plus some cigars every now and then. I was so upset that this had been kept a secret from me and he promised then that he would never smoke again.
Fast forward to today. I pulled up to the firehouse (for an unannounced visit) and Ross and I walked in and I asked someone where he was and they said "Standing out front smoking." *insert
here* The guy I was talking to said "Uh-oh." Anyway he went to find him for me and he came outside and I just asked him, "Were you smoking?" and he said that he was and that we needed to talk.
I'm very hurt by this and I've been lied to since April. This isn't about smoking it's completely a trust issue for me. I don't like smoking and I don't like the havoc it can wreak on your body and I don't understand why my DH would choose to do something like that AND lie to me about it.
He wants me to help him quit and I don't know how to help him. All I know how to do is be mad and hurt. He says he doesn't think he's to the point where he's "hooked" and he says he wants to quit.
I'm really at a loss. This may seem like a trivial thing to be this upset about but like I said this is all about trust and I have none in him as of now.
Okay, putting on my happy face to talk about more pleasant things.
I'm 5 DPO and my temps have stayed high.
Anna-Your poem is just beautiful! You have quite a talent with words.
Becca'sMama-Good luck w/this round of Clomid. Do you find that it dries up your CM?? I read that in TCOYF I *think* and I was wondering if that's a side effect.
phoebekate-Your chart sounds like mine this month!! Our body's can be so confusing! Good luck.
chiromama-All your signs sound positive!
Johanna-I love those gif's!! Awesome!
Elena-Thank you for the