Had an appt with the OB today. Boy, do I wish I'd been seeing her more frequently. I normally meet with the midwives in her practice, and I have had some serious trust issues about the way labor and delivery would go, since I know the OB really calls the shots. But, she was just as wonderful as could be.
A few weeks back, I had that U/S after which she sent me a letter saying my "chances for VBAC could be decreased because my baby measured so large" Blah, blah, blah. And, that's only made me feel even more distrustful. So, today, finally, we got to talk about that. I've been bracing myself for the "we need to induce next week" speech, and it wasn't like that at all! We had a very honest dialog, and talked about VBAC's and legal issues, and her whole position is that if she doesn't have a record of warning me, then she places herself in a vulnerable position. Doesn't mean she doesn't believe I can't do it, just that she needs to have given me the information. It does *slightly* change the way she treats me from here forward, in that I need to get some NST's, but I don't mind that. They just want to hear some heart accelerations from the baby occasionally. And, she will not let me go more than one week past my due date without an induction. What a huge relief that was to hear! I've already lied to her about my period, so that means I have a deadline of August 30, when in actuality, I should be due August 17, so I end up getting two weeks, without her knowing that. All of this is of course contingent on things progressing the way they have been, no huge weight gains, good baby movements, etc, etc. I'm actually okay with this, so I feel so much better than I have for a long time. The fear of her taking this away from me has overshadowed so much of this pregnancy, but we're in the home stretch now, so I'm really seeing the possibilities again.
Other good news is that I'm 70% effaced, 1 1/2 centimeters dilated and at a -2 station. Amazing! With my DD I never dilated until I went on pitocin, and never made it past 50% effaced. I feel like I've already come further than I did last time. I know it's silly to get so excited about this sort of thing, since it really doesn't mean much about *when* you'll go into labor, but it sure made me feel good. And, best of all, the head is confirmed DOWN! YAY!!!! I feel this huge release of fear now. It was all I could do to hold back my tears. I looked over at my husband, and I could tell he felt the same way. It was a very good appointment indeed.
So, labor vibes to those in their last days! I'm too self centered right now to be able to remember who said what. I read it all, but my mind is just a blur. This is really going to happen. Ladies, I have dreamed about giving birth naturally since my cesarean section, and I can't even tell you how much it means that I have an honest chance at this!
In nesting news, I started sorting diapers last night. I was up til the wee hours sorting out our diapers. I do not exaggerate when I say we must have 15+ covers in each size, and I even put some in a bag to sell as I was sorting. Where the heck did we get so many? I was sitting in these huge mountain of diapers just trying to figure out what to do with them all. Unreal! We also have 4 1/2 dozen infant pre-folds, several infant AIO's, 5 dozen premium pre-folds and a couple dozen toddler AIO's. I must have been a nut case with my DD. I sure don't remember having this many! But, it's all good, I guess. I'm selling off a HUGE bag and I still have a massive stash. Maybe I'll be able to buy something great for the baby with them! Better yet, use the money to splurge on a cleaning lady. *That* would be spectacular!