Oh Katie, I hope the house deal goes through. Sounds wonderful!!
Momadance, I love the Ladyglow pads. As liners, I like them better than the Lunapads b/c Lunapads have a waterproof barrier and it's more protection than I need. Sorry if this is TMI but...if I wear them every day my skin doesn't breathe well and....things don't smell so fresh...
BUT, I know the Lunapads lady (one of them) and they are currently working on a pattern for a "breathable" (ie. no waterproof layer) minipad. The Ladyglow lights are quite absorbant, since they are hemp, not too thick, and priced very reasonably! (I got a 6 pack for $22). Lunapads are alot more expensive, but they are very substantial, well-made, and would work great for menstrual use (I never got a chance to try them for that, lol). The organic cotton is really lovely, too. I think the Ladyglow lights I have would only work as a backup to a tampon/keeper or on very light flow days. But they are great for "pregnancy discharge" (what a lovely term! yuck).
I'd love to post a belly pic. I just realize we haven't taken any! We took lots with DD. I'll get DH to take one, and I'll post some photos from our recent trip to Peninsula (Lucymom Town, lol)...
The guilt thing: I don't feel guilty, but I am getting emotional about the short time we have left with just DD. I worry sometimes about how I'm going to meet her needs when I have a little baby around. I don't ever want her to feel she comes in second place, kwim? There's a great thread on the main I'm Pregnant board right now listing book recommendations for "soon to be siblings", so I'm going to get some from the library and start "prepping" Emily. She knows there's a baby in mama's tummy but she is clueless about what that is going to mean for her life. I'm really happy about the baby and think the timing was perfect for us, I'm just a bit nervous about the transition for DD, and how she will handle it.
Now I have my own long vent I need to get off my chest: maybe it's b/c Emily has been waking frequently these last few nights, but I have just suddenly become really negative about nursing. I can't stand it. It is uncomfortable, even painful a bit, and I feel like I just grit my teeth through it. She's sleeping through the night about 50% of the time, but it goes in spurts and right now we're in a "nightnursing" spurt. She wakes at night, stirs and roots for the breast. Sometimes I can get her back to sleep without it, but sometimes she just gets more and more agitated, starts crying and calling out for "milkies!" in this sad, desperate little voice. I so don't want to do it, but I feel like the worst mama in the world if I don't - I mean, denying a child the breast is just....it's like betraying a sacred trust, kwim? We've done some gentle nightweaning with success, but she just isn't ready for total withdrawal at night, while I'm wishing she was. And I feel like I've been such a wishy-washy bad parent b/c I keep saying "no, no milkies, milkies are sleeping" and then I give in b/c I can't stand her crying so desperately for it, it makes me feel like I'm just not being the kind of parent I want to be. Normally I try very hard to be consistent but with this issue...well, I've been just awful - no consistency at night (maybe b/c I'm half asleep)...my dear husband can see it but hasn't said anything, bless his heart. I think I'm being worse by randomly allowing it/not allowing it but my first instinct is always "oh noooooo, not again!!!". I love that nursing can help her calm down when she gets overemotional, and I love that it helps her feel better when she has a boo-boo, and I don't *really* mind nursing her to sleep (although lately even that is bothering me)....but these past few nights I swear I am thinking the "W word" alot more often than I ever thought I would. A part of me is envious of those of you with weaned ones....if I have to nurse two at night I think I'm gonna scream, although Emily IS making lots of progress towards consistently sleeping through the night. Then again, I am also quite sure that the main source of my discomfort/pain is that my breasts are totally empty and flaccid. No lovely pregnancy-bustline here! I'm hoping that when my milk comes in after the birth, that nursing Emily will be a joy again, and a pleasure rather than what seems like 2 minutes of torture.
Sigh. Thanks for listening, if you made it this far. I just really needed to get that off my chest (ha ha).