My grandmother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's a couple of years ago. She quickly deteriorated mentally, which was sad to see. I helped take care of her for half the year last year, which was the hardest thing I ever, ever did in my life. I eventually had to stop because it was affecting me so badly.
She lived with my aunt and uncle (they're her adult children who lived with her) who didn't want to get proffesional care so they had a sting of regular people who didn't know how to deal with her. It has caused a divide in the family as most wanted proper care for her but my aunt didn't want to give up responsiblility.
So last month, she had a bad fall down the stairs, which triggered a number of events. She was bruised head to toe, broke ribs, days after she had 2 strokes (a couple days apart), they found 2 brain anyurisms in a CT scan and some other things I can't remember. She has been in the hospital since as she was in no condition to go home.
Right now I just got an IM from mom that she went into a coma this morning and isn't expected to live much longer. My aunt isn't going to put her on life support, which, in this case, is probably best.
Part of me mourns the impending loss of my grandmother, but a bigger part of me is relieved she is going to find peace from this world. She hasn't been with us for years (she'd been deteriorating for a while before getting an official diagnosis). I think this makes it easier, although it's been hard seeing her go downhill so long. I feel guilty for not feeling worse than I do.
I find it sad that at this tine of joy in our lives (having a baby soons), we're also going to have loss; such is life. I know she would never of "known" this child as she never "knew" my son and saw him as a threat.
Anyway, I just wanted to get my feelings out.
She lived with my aunt and uncle (they're her adult children who lived with her) who didn't want to get proffesional care so they had a sting of regular people who didn't know how to deal with her. It has caused a divide in the family as most wanted proper care for her but my aunt didn't want to give up responsiblility.
So last month, she had a bad fall down the stairs, which triggered a number of events. She was bruised head to toe, broke ribs, days after she had 2 strokes (a couple days apart), they found 2 brain anyurisms in a CT scan and some other things I can't remember. She has been in the hospital since as she was in no condition to go home.
Right now I just got an IM from mom that she went into a coma this morning and isn't expected to live much longer. My aunt isn't going to put her on life support, which, in this case, is probably best.
Part of me mourns the impending loss of my grandmother, but a bigger part of me is relieved she is going to find peace from this world. She hasn't been with us for years (she'd been deteriorating for a while before getting an official diagnosis). I think this makes it easier, although it's been hard seeing her go downhill so long. I feel guilty for not feeling worse than I do.
I find it sad that at this tine of joy in our lives (having a baby soons), we're also going to have loss; such is life. I know she would never of "known" this child as she never "knew" my son and saw him as a threat.
Anyway, I just wanted to get my feelings out.
. That thought has been popping in my mind through the day but I'm hoping something it will work out.
