I am a little over 12 weeks, I am not sure
After the midwife appointment where my uterus meaured just right and having had VERY bad morning sickness and other strong symptoms, we were finally letting ourselves believe that we would have baby #4 next March.
I have a U/S scheduled for when we return to the United States next week because my midwife wanted to be sure about the dates and wanted us to see a heartbeat (instead of stressing out in case she could not find one at office). Why? Because we had 2 pregnancy losses (empty sac at 13 weeks + twins due to TTTS at 17 weeks) and this makes us naturally very scared and cautios - even though our latest pregnancy resulted in our cute Sebastian.
So we are here in Denmark, finally letting ourselves get excited and annoucing the news to everyone... when last night I found some pink streaks in a mucousy substance when I wiped myself. Did not think so much of it, until this morning I found a bit of red mucousy blood when I wipped and then a tad bit more in my hand in the shower
I had one more spotting episode 2 hours later and then nothing more the rest of the day. I rested the WHOLE day and tonight I found a tiny bit of brown mucous when I wipped (probably the leftover of this morning´s spotting)
I am terrified of going to the bathroom specially because I have this constant undefined pain on my lower back and intestines
I never miscarried fully by myself, so I don´t know what it is like.
I have not had any sexual intercourse or anything for at least one week, so it is not that which is causing the spotting...
I talked to DD today when she asked why I was sick, and said that there is a chance we might not have a baby in the tummy. We never really promised them anything, and said we needed to take "pictures" of my tummy to see if there was a baby. The loss of the twins was hard on her, so I did not want to get her hopes high from the beginning. Then she said that she knew I had a baby because I vomitted everyday and because my tummy looks big - then she asked crying if the baby was dead or was going to fall out All I could say is that all we could do was to wait...
I promised I would not get my hopes up until after the US, but I am so so sad and heartbroken at prospect of one more loss...
Maybe there is another empty sac, or a baby without a heartbeat, or worse... a healthy baby that might not make it. I am not going to know until next week... if the bleeding does not continue of course.
Please... think of us tonight
I am crying now and can´t type anymore... better go to sleep (it is past midnight here) .
Thanks for listening
After the midwife appointment where my uterus meaured just right and having had VERY bad morning sickness and other strong symptoms, we were finally letting ourselves believe that we would have baby #4 next March.
I have a U/S scheduled for when we return to the United States next week because my midwife wanted to be sure about the dates and wanted us to see a heartbeat (instead of stressing out in case she could not find one at office). Why? Because we had 2 pregnancy losses (empty sac at 13 weeks + twins due to TTTS at 17 weeks) and this makes us naturally very scared and cautios - even though our latest pregnancy resulted in our cute Sebastian.
So we are here in Denmark, finally letting ourselves get excited and annoucing the news to everyone... when last night I found some pink streaks in a mucousy substance when I wiped myself. Did not think so much of it, until this morning I found a bit of red mucousy blood when I wipped and then a tad bit more in my hand in the shower
I had one more spotting episode 2 hours later and then nothing more the rest of the day. I rested the WHOLE day and tonight I found a tiny bit of brown mucous when I wipped (probably the leftover of this morning´s spotting)I am terrified of going to the bathroom specially because I have this constant undefined pain on my lower back and intestines
I never miscarried fully by myself, so I don´t know what it is like.
I have not had any sexual intercourse or anything for at least one week, so it is not that which is causing the spotting...
I talked to DD today when she asked why I was sick, and said that there is a chance we might not have a baby in the tummy. We never really promised them anything, and said we needed to take "pictures" of my tummy to see if there was a baby. The loss of the twins was hard on her, so I did not want to get her hopes high from the beginning. Then she said that she knew I had a baby because I vomitted everyday and because my tummy looks big - then she asked crying if the baby was dead or was going to fall out
All I could say is that all we could do was to wait...I promised I would not get my hopes up until after the US, but I am so so sad and heartbroken at prospect of one more loss...
Maybe there is another empty sac, or a baby without a heartbeat, or worse... a healthy baby that might not make it. I am not going to know until next week... if the bleeding does not continue of course.
Please... think of us tonight
I am crying now and can´t type anymore... better go to sleep (it is past midnight here) .
Thanks for listening
and prayers! I had spotting with both Gretchen and Koen and now I can hardly keep up with them!
