Kimberly- I definately KWYM, and I am really starting to get excited and look forward to Oakley's arrival, at long last...not that I wasn't looking forward to it before but you know!
Argh so I have a major vent that I think is keeping me up, hopefully after I get this off my chest I can get back to sleep. We were at the fair today (and had a really good time) except for this one incident where another mom brought out the pregnant b*tch in me

: Ember was standing by this display, you know the kind the kids stick there head into and get thier picture taken...so anyway, we've been in this nice little kids area for like 5 or 10 mins and are thoroughly enjoying ourselves when this woman comes up gets her two kids in the thing and then barks "Can you get her out of the way" to my mom, refering to Ember (I was a few feet away, beside this woman infact)...so my my moves Ember closer to her, and it's not good enough for the woman so she basically says the same thing again. At this point, I was already

: by her tone the first time so I snapped at her...can't remember exactly word for word what I said but basically "Well aren't you just a little bit rude! Four, Five Six! (which is something our family uses to mean FOR F*ck SAKES, incase you aren't familiar with it :LOL) Instead of appoligizing, which of course is what I am expecting...I mean hey, this is my Dd right...she snaps back at me like "don't you know how hard it is to get them to stay still for a pic?" And so I'm like "Yeah but you can still be polite" and she's like "yeah and I'd like to tell you...." then basically cuts herself off before saying the f word, though she did get the F...out. I don't even thing she new Ember was my dd, because she was standing with my mom. I almost yelled at her "yeah well I'm pregnant (cuz I don't even think she noticed, she was just so oblivious to everything around her), what's your excuse for being a B*tch"....OHHH she just filled me with rage...I think it was the momma bear thing, that and the fact that she talked as though my Dd was a "thing" to be moved instead of a person who she should have been directing the question to, KWIM? I guess maybe had I said "she'll move, as soon as you ask her nicely" which is what I would have said had I overheard the same thing coming from a kid, I would have had better results. So then, she leaves and is standing with her family or whoever and I see her point over to me...so I waved her the bird

, OK, so I could have probably done without doing that too, but

And anyway, I don't think that Ember would be in the pic anyway....you've probably all seen what I am talking about, those things are designed to pretty much take up the whole shot! And just to be sure you know, this took place rather quickly and it's not like we were yelling at eachother or drawing attention to ourselves, it was pretty much a private exchange, don't want you all to have pictures of me creating a scene in your heads.

So now that my rant was over I was really bummed out because I couldn't shed that mood for quite sometime, probably until my blood pressure came down

and here Ember was totally enjoying herself and being so sweet...and I was watching her and trying to enjoy the moment but my mind was still racing. It was really cute, the kids were given a basket and then it was a kind of scavenger hunt I guess... they had a little dirt plot and you were were to find 2 potatoes, a chicken coop to find 2 eggs and an orchard to find 2 apples. (that's why Ember was even standing there in the first place, she was not supposed to "look" while they were hidding the potatoes, which was right behind the display so she was only doing what she had been told) Ember must have done it at least 4 or 5 times, it was so cute...she was so independent and would quietly find her things...bring them back to the girls, sort them into the buckets for them...and do it again

And I actually witnessed a new side to her, I'd never really seen her be that involved and focused, yet not running around with excitement just calm...hard to explain but that's why I felt sad about the whole not just being able to enjoy the moment thing

Ahhh, hopefully I can get some sleep now. Hope you don't all think I am terrible, do you think you'd have done or felt the same?
Tomorrow we are going to the parade, biggest one that we see around here and Ember is super excited about it, so I really want to get some sleep. Oh and one more thing, made a mistake by letting Ember's first ride be a fast one that goes up and down

....my poor girl, I was trying to reassure her that it was OK but she didn't even look at me...just looked straight ahead, sometimes with eyes closed (is there a cringe icon?) and was saying " I don't like this, I want off". I am glad that she didn't cry (or puke)...and she did get used to it...hopped off and said that was fun, :LOL....but I am lucky she wasn't tramatized!! She went on others after but we were more careful in our selections, and made sure that she was sitting with her cousin, not by herself...so don't make the same mistake that I did when your little ones get to that age!